Yesterday was quite fun! None of my friends got drunk, and Suzette (a very very close friend) even brought her friends from high school! I don't think I remember any time since I left my old university that I laughed so hard! :)
All in all, I say it was a good decision to have gone to the party. The ambiance was great, the accoustic and reggae bands were awesome, and the company was wonderful. I say the best get-together I ever had so far in Cebu. (many many thanks to Suzette. Salamat, manang! ;) If you wouldn't have pestered me about it, i would have missed a great night out!)

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Some activity involving beer going on Saturday night...should I go? *sighs* Half of me wants to, the other part just says I could use that night to sleep. Why, all of the sudden, am I all confused? Because if this happened in, say, a few weeks ago, I would have said no in a wink. Now...I want to go. For some reason I just want human contact. For pete's sake, I haven't seen my friends in my other school since.. October! >_<
God, why do I force myself to be such a recluse anyway?

The hell's wrong with me?!

P.S.

yiriandur: nah. it's just that when you try the hardest, things can go wrong.. while when you're loosening up a bit things go perfect.
yiriandur: like..
yiriandur: have you ever tried to walk an overfull cup of coffee to a table and tried really hard not to spill?
yiriandur: then there's most chance you *will* spill coffee. when you walk normally and don't think about spilling, it most likely wont happen

That made sense. Really. Now to chew it all up before my head shifts to find another reason to go swimming in the other direction again.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 3:23 AM

I think Bamboo's NoyPi should be heard by every living Filipino everywhere. We've had our share of bad times. It's about time we had a song to lift our spirits up.


Tingnan mo ang iyong palad.
Kalyado mong kamay
sa hirap ng buhay
Dami mong problema
pero nakuha mo pang ngumiti
Noypi ka nga astig!
s'an ka man naroroon wag kang matatakot.
Sa baril o patalim,
Sa bukas na madilim...

Hoy pinoy ako!
Buo ang aking loob,
may agimat ang dugo ko!

Sinisid ko ang dagat,
Nilibot ko ang mundo.
Nasa puso ko pala ang hinahanap kong pulo.
Ilang beses na akong muntikang mamatay.
O, alam ko ang sikreto kaya andito pa't buhay...
Sabi nila may anting-anting ako
pero di nila alam diyos ang dahilan ko...

Hoy pinoy ako!
Buo ang loob ko,
May agimat ang dugo...

Dinig mo ba ang ang bulong ng lahi mo?
Isigaw mo kapatid, ang himig natin...

Hoy pinoy ako!
Buo ang loob ko,
may agimat ang dugo ko!


Rough Translation:

Look at your palm,
your rough hands
Life's been tough
with so many problems
But you still can smile
You are a Filipino.
Wherever you are, don't be afraid
with the bullet, or the spear
with the uncertain future...

Hey, I'm a Filipino!
My heart is whole,
on my blood flows the charms of my forefathers

I have dived the depths of oceans
I have circled the world
I realized the island that I was looking for is in my heart all along
So many times I faced death in the face
Yes, I know the secret of life
They say I prolonged my life with charms and magic
But I know it was God that preserved me.

Hey, I'm a Filipino!
My heart is whole,
on my blood flows the charms of my forefathers

Do you hear the call of your race?
Shout out loud, brother, our song...

Hey, I'm a Filipino!
My heart is whole,
on my blood flows the charms of my forefathers

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:36 AM

I...cannot...believe it. *blinks*
The exam was an insult to my efforts in meticulously covering everything that was ever taught to me-- all that worrying and panic attacks and it was so darned easy. >_<
Fine. I'm crazy. I should be thankful.

Bleh.

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Ah...and just before I enter the lion's den I recieved a letter from him. *is smiling her widest this very moment*. The tingles haven't subsided yet, and it's a very, -very- good feeling. It's supposed to be for Valentines day, but since I have a poor excuse for a postal delivery service, it arrived today. At least it's on the same month.
Should I dare risk a mushy blog entry? Uhm... I don't think so *grins*, but--just for the record-- I love him. No words could ever describe how I feel about him (and maybe thankfully so, because if I did, this entry would be quite long). hmm...Maybe we'll leave it at that.
Now I am off to slay the SQL exam.

Bye.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 1:48 PM

In a good note, I have (as planned) finished my 20+ paged assignment yesterday.
In a bad one...because of this darned blog-place (whatever you call it), I have totally forgotten about my basic (if not primitive) means of release: my journal. *sighs*
After this week, I promise to give the poor thing a good update on things.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 1:07 AM

Argh! Panic attack! *mutters*
Well, again, struggling to breathe normally what with the finals the next day with SQL and all. *sighs* My parents left a few hours ago for home, and I'm alone again. I feel bad, really, 'cause I kinda told my mom it was really bad timing that they visited me on finals week and I felt so pressured and all that. They meant well, of course. And it's not their fault. I could have eased up a bit, I know. I mean, school might be very demanding, but I could always have made time to shop with my mom or go somewhere with my dad. Yeah...sinking in now... I am such a wretched person. >_<'
I don't know why I felt the need to just... submerge myself completely with school and give it my 100% attention while my parents came all the way from another island just to see me! All week it's either my mom shopped alone or she goes with dad (I am thinking my father was very bored with her shopping for shoes and the like)----but without me. I feel bad about it. :(
But it was finals week! And finals week is...important! *sighs*
They're not mad, of course. Not even hinting that I should relax with them for awhile. But it just seemed so wrong!
Bah. And I've a whole Oracle book to delve into for tomorrow's exams. 8 glorious chapters of query techniques *mutter, mutter*. Well, giving it a rest for a few minutes. Give myself time to breathe normally again.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:57 AM

Amazing.

I studied a chapter for 30 minutes for an exam... and i think I survived.

Amazing. XD

Okay, you realize my cerebrals had shut down after that exam. Which is okay, considering I need to have it well-rested for another hurdle tomorrow, which I plan to submerge myself in Oracle SQLness for the whole day, that is, if I don't finish my ST109 coursework assignment today.
How in the world could I make 20+ pages today? *sighs*

Nothing like an overnight job can handle. I might suffer from derangement tomorrow, but at least I can do my studying for the finals ahead. I am -dead- tired this week. My parents being here added more stress. Not that they are presssuring me to do anything, but I can't go on doing my usual methods of going about schoolwork either. I tend to cram, which is very effective for me, but they want me to study ahead. So I did that. I have actually almost finished my Multimedia coursework assignment before passing date (march 1), all so I could focus on my SQL CWA and ST109 CWA (I'm thanking my stars the teacher didn't give us a final exam on ST109).
And so...after that SQL finals, everything would be rearranged again. Back to my usual...erm... mess. But a familiar, nice mess it is.

Plus I need to pay more attention to my beloved. Since I feel so bad that I almost virtually ignored him since last week. I didn't mean to, of course. School can be cruel, like I said. Hmm... But no worries. He will have all my attention after all this is over. :)

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 2:34 PM

*is at school*
happy to report my database table design is approved. Good. XD
What else? Tomorrow I will get my new cd-rw drive thingie... which I will need for school (otherwise, I wouldn't get one). Hrm...
Teacher's back. Going.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 3:46 PM

I am so busy, the whole week's a blur right now. With my mother breathing on my shoulder, I don't think I could even think that I'm thinking. >_<
I have finally arrived to my last week of the semester... unscratched and triumphant, if I can say so myself. Now all I have to do left is study for finals and go do my coursework assignments. Which were not all that fuzzy-rainbow to do.
I have, in my stupidity, accidentally deleted a presentation I have been working on... and I just felt like it's the end of the world. Thankfully, after a little sleep, I redid everything again, even quite better than the last.
*sighs* I'm crossing my fingers that I may do everything well and survive.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 1:37 AM

I am currently in the academe realm...
As usual in front of a machine for a teacher, and perpetually blinking in the electronic sentiments that compose around 80% of my day... possibly for the rest of my life. It would be a sad life, maybe, but it's a way to live.
Not, of course, that I am not aware of the life around me. Annoying bipeds scurrying about, worrying about the next party, and who's doing who. They make good companions, but i am more worried about waking up the next day and see my life on track because of the decisions I've made the other day. What I meant was that I am living a ho-hum life as of now, my nose on books or in some module, but that's the way it has to be. After all, I have the rest of my life to enjoy. I don't have what I could consider a friend in this institution, and I don't feel sorry that I don't. None of them inspire me, none of them give me the slightest impression of brain activity. Cruel, sure, but if I would delve deeper into their...colorful... lives I would lose sight of my goal. And that is to end up on top, or somewhere near the top, at least. I have never planned to be like this cold-hearted entity, obsessed with achievement and whatnot, but this is all I have going right now.

Other than that, there's him. Of course, we both know we should put school before everything else, even ourselves. After all, school is a cycle. A relationship, however, is a straight path through and through-- or at least, I'd like to think so. *frowns*

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:51 PM

The weirdest thing happened... MY PARENTS ARE HERE!
*blinks stupidly until all feeling comes back to her limbs* Hmm...
Yes, yes, the parental units are at the moment perching on my bed, having invaded the mall all afternoon. They just appeared out of nowhere, just when I was going down to call a taxi for school. And there they are. It was such a wonderful surprise, really. To think they won't be here with me on March for my birthday. So this visit's good. ^_^
This would mean me minimizing my illegal activities (not really) in the ungodly hours I keep in front of the computer, then. Not that the parents are that clueless about my odd visits online. I don't think they would mind at all, except that I really don't want them to worry.

About that exam I was rambling about a few hours ago, it turned out decent, even okay. I think I have covered everything with satisfactory if not excellent answers. I'm just hoping my teacher would be patient enough to read my horrenduous handwriting. It seems like it would be my downfall, that. So I am looking at a passing grade. *nods*

So I am off to entertain the older pair. I was hoping for a talent in juggling, but the heavens weren't so kind.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 9:01 PM

Another day to wake up to, unfortunately. And as usual, a quiz patiently opening it's jaws for me to enter in, oh about 2 hours. More of those SQL thingies I would have to stuff my head with. Ah, well... if this is how I could get through school with a decent (if not astoundingly high) grade, then so be it.

It's fairly easy, actually, the thing I'm supposed to study for. Maybe a reason why I am quite unperturbed about it. I'm never really that confident about exams, but I do prepare for it. And since i've started being really good at this "school thing", might as well go with it until I graduate, don't you think? Teachers have been embarrassingly impressed by my average brain, so I'm guessing it would dissappoint them if I show any inconsistencies in my performance. A bit of a pressure there, but pressure is good. Especially since it's about school.

And, well, I may be severely stressed over my works, but I think it is far better than doing nothing. Doing nothing usually lead me to thinking. And thinking make me depressed. Idle hands are the Devil's playground...

Right.. so I'm off to study. Hopefully, I will get another decent grade.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:57 PM

Post-Phone Call:

Well, that went decently. I just told him that because he knocked the door, he should know what to talk about (tortures people that way). Sadly, it ended abruptly...
But it felt nice to hear his voice. The evil thing can make my insides turn to mush. So, there...my weakness. *sighs* Less chances for world domination now...
Along with a sweet greeting for yesterday's event, I think my day has come full circle.
Now I'll face the day with renewed...ehm... optimism (yes, yes, I have that).

Speaking of... it's a sunday again. I would wake up presumably around 3 in the afternoon, ergo wasting a few hours on sleep while there is work to be done (like plotting and laughing evilly). Also missing a few hours to get an assignment done, and study for a quiz on Monday. Blergh. But, anyway, I consider Sunday a day where I get to sleep for long hours since I will be missing that luxury over the week. School can be cruel.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 4:03 AM

Right... He (note that this is spoken with much reverence in my part) will call in a few minutes... *is excited and weirdly nervous*---as with every phone call I ever had with him. I have no idea why, but there's always a threat that I would have the following reactions:
A) I'd stutter again, which would be very bad considering I never stutter. It's only while talking to him that this occurs. So there goes my training in speaking english effectively.
B) Saying something I might regret after putting the phone down. It seems like time suspends itself when we talk (unfortunately, the laws don't much apply on call rates), and it is only after the conversation that I regain both the function of my brain and the strength of my knees. Or..
C) That I have nothing at all to say. Maybe perhaps because the realization that he is actually talking to me dawned upon my then-stunned brain, and hence the said reaction.

All total to my fear of sounding like a complete buffoon (or how you spell it *ignores the spellcheck button*). God help me.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 3:14 AM

And so begins the day of Hearts--- I rather have them bleed. Yes, as usual I have classes on a Saturday (CS155 - Multimedia), and since my college is situated inside a mall (yes, believe it or not), the influx of the love cattle is unbearable. I would have wanted them all to get a room, but I'm nice, so I kept my mouth shut.

My school has planned a film viewing for this occassion for lovers (barf, barf). A couple of sappy love flicks, all depicting the usual sugar-coated reality that is the human relationship. *sighs* I was there for my class, so ignoring most of the blushing and gushing population of my gender, I have successfully gotten through this day without much as a prolonged wince (I expected full-on attempt to introduce them to the breakfast I had this morning).

I am happy to report I have survived. Yay me.

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