Whee! We won! WE WON! Heheh! I was up kinda early 'cause Ela and Pao arrived (they're here for Halloween!) and Ela decided to knock on my door which totally woke me up! I usually get really pissed when I get woken up by someone... except Ela or Paopao. ^_^

Anyway, since I couldn't go back to sleep, I decided on being Miss Home Economics again and practically mutilated my stripey shirt and sewed on a white skull on my black tank and ta-dah! A new costume for this afternoon's Awarding ceremony!

I love my skull-shirt!


>>> More to talk about! BRB! <<<

Sorry about that... waiting for Pao to sleep so I won't have to bother him with my typing..

Where were we? Oooh! The awarding ceremony! They told us it starts at 3pm... so I went there around 2 (Diding and Trixie were earlier). Before meeting them, I was a bit nervous about wearing a costume again when I enter the mall 'cause there'd be lots of people and I dun like being stared at, but it turns out I'm just part of one huge costume-wearing crowd (mostly of kids)! SM also had their costume contest for kids (7 years running!) and it went on before the awarding for the window display contest. It kinda went on forever so we decided to hang out at the school for a bit and take lots of pictures and stuff. We also checked out the cute costumes of lots of kids (some are really, really scary!)... went upstairs to grab some waffles... went back to school to hang out again, and finally, the awarding was about to start!

We were already allowed to get some chairs in front of the stage and the kids with the best costumes were awarded first, so we had time posing with other children in costumes! After that, the winners for the window display was announced and we're the grand prize winner and we got so psyched that we practically ran onstage! Supposed to be there should only be one representative to claim the huge ribbon and the money, but we ALL went up there! Heheh! And we posed for pictures 'cause there's this guy from SunStar (local newspaper) and we're gonna appear on a page! Woohoo!

Check out the album! (pics by Diana)

Well, needless to say, we took LOTS of pictures. Heheh. Well, we're really proud of the thing we did with the school and the decorations and stuff.... too bad not everyone helped, tho. Hmr...
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Unedited Grad pic. Heheh.

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Taken yesterday out of sheer boredom. Hrm...

Anyway, last night (and early in the morning) was really fun 'cause lots of Info people joined the conference and Diana decided to play DJ and played some songs (our requests) via microphone. We invited somebody from Informatics Raintree 'cause he PM'ed me that the Sportsfest will be moved to February (which totally got everyone in the conference frustrated). Hrm...

I personally don't really care much about the idea of merging events with other schools. I hardly even join any on my own school and judging from the behavior of my schoolmates, they'd just group together on one side, and the people from other schools on the other. *sighs* Well, I give it to the Info bigwigs to have thought of the idea. What's really annoying is that SM's about done with the responsibilites assigned to them. Just because Raintree couldn't look for sponsors and whatever the heck they can't do, doesn't mean they can only whine about it and urge the others to move the date! They're just a bunch of whiny, spoiled brats. It's unfair. Now Diana's worried about what to do with the sponsors who already accepted and how to tell them the darned event is cancelled for this November.

This PM there's an emergency meeting at Info (wasn't there 'cause me's in Lapu-lapu). Diana's gonna fill me in about what happened there.

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Tuesday

I got sooo tired today! I got up at around 8 in the morning 'cause my sister arrived from Butuan! She gave me lots of stuff my mom bought for me (mostly clothes and earrings) and I was surprised that all she brought home was one bag---filled with my stuff! Then I learned she's just here to enroll herself then go back to Butuan in the evening! Anyway, by then I had a hard time going back to sleep so I took a bath and decided to go to Ayala to look for more decorations for school. Nothing super Halloween-ey in there so I just walked around and was surprised (and excited) to see Janylin sell some shoes 50% off! AND MY FAVE PUMPS WAS ON SALE TOO! So I bought it immediately, even though it's another addition to my new set of very painful yet sexy pairs of shoes. :P

<-- it's this one. ;) I like it 'cause it looks goth-ish.

Anyway, seeing there's nothing else in Ayala, at around 12:30, I went to SM to help out in the decorating. I get to cut more pumpkins, paint a certain font for tombstones, and watch Cornelius, Pops, and Kevin have fun scaring people outside (something about a contraption Corni made that makes a fuzzy spider fall on somebody who stopped by the school to see out Photoshopped Halloween pictures at Room A). Pops thought it was a great idea to give candies to the people with the best reaction. Heheh. Oooh...and while helping Cornelius in glueing the leaves on the glass wall for Room A, I accidentally touched the hot glue stick and now I feel this little sting on my thumb. :( Erm... what else? Decorating... and... more decorating... hmm... Hope it's all worth it, tho. We really NEED to win. Heheh.

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Wednesday

It's THE DAY! Hehe! I couldn't sleep a wink 'cause I was sooo excited! So I decided to use the time to make some certain "alterations" on my tie (cut a cross from an old black shirt and sew it on the tie :P).
<-- my tie
<-- my hand-whatever-thing

See the album!

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After lunch, took a shower, did my makeup (extra black eyeshadow!), drew a cute little star above my cheek, changed into my goth/punkish/lolita-ish costume and asked Krystel if she thinks it's ok... she gave me a thumbs up! I asked Ate Wena to take a few pics of yours truly so I could send it to Tita Maimai ('cause my mom and Ela wanted to see), and I was on my way to SM!

I arrived at around 2-ish and as I had my bag checked at the entrance, the female guard said "Informatics ka noh? Nindot imo sanina, dai." I smiled and did a sweet pose! I though walking towards the school would be hard 'cause there would be lots of people staring but I can't actually run in my shoes (feels like it's made of wood!) so I had to walk slowly with my head held high... and if anyone would as much as point and say something rude, I'd give 'em a very angry and carefully polished finger! Wah! But it turned out that some of the guys are already outside wearing their costumes and frightening little kids so I felt better about walking all the way towards school. People were complimenting me on my costume and I was glad 'cause it took a whole LOT of effort to put the whole thing together! Even though my shoes are killing me, I felt great all over anyway!

They set up a TV set near the entrance at Informatics showing some scary movies and we also videotaped the reactions of the "victims" of Cornelius' spider thing. Sir Karl wore an all-black outfit with some scary skull necklace (that he wouldn't let anybody touch!), Sir Mel wore all-black stuff as well (and eyeliner overload!), Sir Henry was inspired by that Photoshop manip that I did of him and stuck a plastic knife on his chest... and the rest of the faculty wore funny headresses. The Course Consultants went lilac with their outfits complete with matching wings and wands! So cute! Anyway, you'll see all of it on the album (linked above).

The whole day went really great! I was really glad to see our efforts appreciated by the people who passed by (and by the judges! For 5 days, we decorated the place and they only checked it out for 5 minutes! Heheh!). It really did come together nicely... and there was this great sense of unity with the students---which is rare. Pop's daughter, Blossom, came to visit and she was the cutest thing ever! A bit upset about Cornelius' costume, tho (he's a hunchback!). Heheh.

Ooooh! And the cutest thing happened! We had our picture taken with Sir Karl! It might not sound like a big deal, but Sir Karl usually doesn't want to be in any pictures. It was a RARE opportunity so we took advantage of it! Pops actually sat on his lap and Sir Karl looked like he's ready to throw her down the floor and run! Ahahahah! What was more shocking is that he congratulated me on my costume and gave me a high five! No kidding!!!!!!!

After the judges were gone, everyone was kinda tired and hungry so we all went our separate ways to hunt down some food. I brought another pair of shoes to change if ever I can't walk with my gothilicious ones anymore, so after I changed, Diana, Pops,Cornelius, Maimai, Trixie, Abigail, and I went to Tacos to get some quesadillas. On our way back to the school, we passed by a guy that waved at me and said "Hi Wednesday!". Hmr...

We hung out at Info for a bit and at around 7pm, everybody was off to watch the basketball practice for out Sportsfest. I told them I'll pass and went to Sbarro to buy myself dinner and went home. It was a weird experience 'cause it was quite alright walking with the girls with our costumes... but I was alone and people had these really confused look in their faces when they see me. Heheh. And kids hide behind their parents when they see me! xD

I went home and had dinner with Kuya, Papay, Chichi, and Karl. Then I went directly upstairs and changed, removed my makeup (took a long time!) and went to sleep! I woke up 'cause someone sent me an SMS (with a scary laugh as my message alert tone!) and it was Anton! He was outside the house and he bought pizza! He got to know Bax, played with him for a bit, we ate (while Bax was waiting to be fed some too!), and talked for a bit.

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Heh! Bad phone connection! No dial tone again! Will get to the bottom of this and update you guys with the Halloween thing plus pictures! Toodles!

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Well, today was fun. Everyone started wearing black and we continued decorating for Wednesday. We also had a meeting about the Halloween Decorating contest and how it would help out in the Sportsfest and if we'd win this, it'll cut the student's contribution in half! I was kinda annoyed, though, 'cause I calculated how much we'd save if we'd win and told Diana and after that, I heard this guy (to Diding: first year... tapad ni Hazel, naka-red, chubby.) say "Sigurado na diay mo na madaug mo?" I couldn't help but turn around and told him "THAT's why everybody should help out and wear costumes on Wednesday!" Geez! That's the problem with some Informatics students... some don't really respect the efforts of others. Here we were, talking about how great it would be to save money and win this thing... and he had the audacity to say something like that. He didn't even TRY helping out with the decorating, and the least he could do is cooperate and wear a costume or an all-black attire on Wednesday. To think Diana signed up for the contest to save people like him from paying too much for the Sportsfest. It almost totally ruined my day. Grrrr!

As I said, we continued putting on the decorations. We focused on Room A this time: We added some crack effects on the glass, placed a pile of pumpkins on the corner (I drew and cut most of them... almost went crazy! And it still wasn't enough! Wah!), added some of those webby things on the computer monitors (since they look great contrasting with the monitor's black color),the printouts of random pictures of how people made the decorations (A sort of "behind-the-scenes" thing) so the people outside would know how we made the entire thing together (so maybe the judges would know how much effort we put into the thing), and Sir Henry worked on making the screensaver out of those scary-fied pictures I made. After Room A, Corni and I placed some black ghosts on every classroom door and at some point I walked around the lobby without my shoes on 'cause my feet hurt. xD

Anyway, after my work is done, I decided to go buy the stuff I need for the 26th. I told Diana I'd cut out more pumpkins at home and bring them tomorrow. I went around SM to buy black lipstick, black stockings, a tie, and I spotted a cute pair of cat ears so I bought them too! Sooo excited for Wednesday!!! Hope everybody will wear something wicked for the judging! We need that money! Heheh.


Meow? :P

Pumpkins...

Oh, and I think it's Anton's birthday tomorrow. Hrm...
ell, Happy Birthday!
I kinda lost your number...so... diri nalang ko greet.
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"Guys are weird: they raise you up; and then you realize your neck is on a noose. When you finally fall for them, it leaves you choking and struggling. And after they're done with you, they leave you hanging." - quote from some movie I saw on Hallmark.

So true, it's creepy.

Anyway, nothing much happened today. I couldn't go to school for Day 2 of the decorating 'cause I didn't have any more money for my cab rides back and forth (yeah, yeah... spent the rest of my allowance with those yummy yet painful black pumps). So I stayed home, woke up late, watched TV, cut off some of my split ends, hot oiled my hair, etc. My mom told me she'd buy my black skirt for my Halloween costume in Butuan, and have it 'modified' kuno so it'll be goth-ish. Now all I have to do here is buy accessories for my outfit. I'd really wanna go supergoth but it's still a mall... and malls have lots of people... others are those kind that don't really understand why somebody would wear an all-black number with cat-ears. :P

Speaking of my mom, she went to Duka Bay Resort with my dad, my sister, Ela, Pao, their parents (and I think Kuya Jason and his family as well)! It's so not fair! They said that since the graduation date was moved, they decided to have fun somewhere else! To think I'm the most heartbroken with the whole thing and I'm stuck here! All alone in my room and very, very depressed! Heller? o.O

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Well, as requested, there are the original pictures before I modified them thru Photoshop. Pictures courtesy of Cornelius.

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(left to right: Trixie, Kevin, Pops, Maimai 1, Maimai 2, Maimai 3, Sir Mel, Cornelius, Dodie, Sir Henry)

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Happy to report that everyone was happy with the results! I went to SM today to help the guys set up the Halloween stuff. I made cut-out bats to hang on the ceiling and the others placed red cellophane thingies on the lights in the lobby. We still have a lot of work to do 'cause Room A's still empty and we still have to make the tombstones, etc. Here's a pic of the work so far:

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Click on the thumbnails for larger versions! (new window will pop out)
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(left to right: Trixie, Kevin, Pops, Maimai 1, Maimai 2, Maimai 3, Sir Mel, Cornelius, Dodie, Sir Henry, the group at Toy Kingdom)





Anyway, totally fun day today! Diana decided to enter the school for SM's Halloween event where the spookiest establishment decorations get to win up to p20,000! We want to win the thing 'cause that would mean the students wouldn't have to give p500 each for the Sportsfest (uniforms, etc)! We decided that since we still don't have the money to buy our materials, we should start taking pictures for scary screensavers (on computers at Room A so the people outside could see). So Cornelius went around taking pictures of people (which was so funny!) and I'm assigned in "halloweenifying" the pics and...ta-dah! (the stuff above could still get edited by moi) We also went up to Toy Kingdom to check out some nice Halloween stuff we could use. Since we're the ones who'll decorate the school, we have to buy this cute uniform bat-headbands! ^_^

The judging will happen on the 26th and Sir Karl will post a memo at the bulletin boards that the students are encouraged to either wear an all-black attire or any other halloween costume! Tomorrow, we're going to buy the stuff we'll need and on Sunday, we decorate.

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what i see in my own eyes
is a very poor disguise
the weakest smile you've ever seen
would make you wonder where i've been

i've just been through hell and back
how many times? well, i've lost track
all I know's my heart's destroyed
all I know's my mind's a void

little strings go up and down
controlling every smile and frown
i wonder if i still control
the stirring of my crying soul

i tried to grasp my everyday
but of course, to my dismay
i cannot find the little things
of happiness that this life brings

i want to crush my head in woe
(i just might give that one a go)
i want to stab right through my heart
rather than someone tear it apart

i want to scratch my eyes all raw
i have made myself my own foe
but i do not wish to ever see
how hurtful this world could be

pricking fingers yet again
pricking, yes, can be a friend
let my pain seep out my body
nevermind the pillow's bloody

i hate so much but i hurt more
it burns right down my very core
my arms are numb, my eyes are dry
my present state just makes me cry

just like a doll, tattered and used
sitting there, all confused
after it all, returned to her shelf
no one to blame, all but herself

just like a rat inside a lab
tested, poked, pinched, and stabbed
an experiment gone very wrong
their curiosity didn't last long

throw me after you're done, will you?
why not kill me off as well?
end my fucking life because it has no meaning at all
i despise your kind.

©mTm

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Took a pic of the skirt I wore during pictorial. This is me on the cab, stuck in traffic and I have nothing to do.

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Hmhm... nothing much happened today. I went to Ayala to buy milk and ramen (as usual) and had an early dinner there. After that, tho, I was on a cab heading home when the Orange and Lemons song was playing! Dunno what exactly I was thinking but I sang out the chorus...together with the driver! And we never really looked at each other or whatever, but inside, I was laughing my ass off! It was so cute! At the same time weird and jologs-ish! Heheh.

Anyway, I decided I should really add mousse before drying my hair with the blower everytime I go out 'cause it really does give volume and my hair looks really shiny. Before, I never really made time to do it, though I'm pretty aware what mousse could do... But for a day with behaving hair and no frizzes? Totally worth the extra 30 minutes!

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Note to Bing: Really, man... do update your blog. It might be tasking for you to write about your day... but it worries me when you don't. :P I know you keep reading mine... so if you won't make an entry tomorrow, I am -SO- going to link your blog in here! Sige ka! Ahahaha! To think you're the one who convinced me to make a blog! Hello? :P

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PBB:

Aww! Sam's task was to take care of two tiny kids (Din-din and LM)! It's so cute 'cause he doesn't know what to do with them and he's totally clueless about what makes them smile and whatever. I could really relate 'cause most kids just make me uncomfortable. I kinda don't them little things running around, especially the noisy ones. I mean, I love my own baby cousins and all, but those kids I don't know.... er.... not too fond of them.

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I miss my parents. :( Pretty much alone right now 'cause Krystel went home with Dian and Kuya and Karl went home yesterday. Just me, Wena, and Manang. Hmhm... Oh, and also Bax. ^_^

But I heard Pao and El's gonna spend Halloween here. Hope so! And my tita said November 29's perfect for my graduation 'cause my lolo and lola will be home from the States by then! Hope they won't be too disappointed when I tell them I'm only allowed two guests (that'll be mom and dad...plus try slipping in my sister and Ela... but I hope I get to have my grandparents there as well)... I guess there's gonna be a salo-salo after the graduation ceremony, prolly at some restaurant. Ah, well... them's gonna plan for all that. Either way, I'm so excited to have the whole family here!

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McBaby! So adorable! ^_^

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Lists, Lists, Lists!

Likes: (in no particular order)

PBB
furry pets
goldfishes
penguins
earrings
Gil Grissom
chunky rings
being alone
pointy-toed shoes
wedge sandals
manicures/pedicures
a good hair mousse
bohemian tops
jeans
tacos
CSI Las Vegas and New York
LoTR
Harry Potter
chunky peanut butter
push-up bras
Marius the Vampire
my old stuffed bunny, Miranda
Cats
Spongebob Squarepants
my computer (sometimes)
sparkly eye shadow
my hairdryer
foundation
thick soups
bright-colored nail polish
undies with cartoon prints
fishnet stockings (never found the right time to wear ‘em, tho)
Lancome Miracle
cheese
pizza!
gravy
instant ramen
Johnny Depp
cryptozoology
epic movies
epic rock
Finnish hip hop :P
cheesecake
four seasons drink
flip flops (even though my feet are ugly)
lozenges
my digital tablet
my seamonkey tanks (still a few swimming around)
cinemas
horror movies
not paying for my own meal out
documentaries
string bracelets
hot oil treatments
Buffy
sleeping in
green tea
kare-kare
letters from my friends in Europe!
hotdogs
lots more stuff!!!

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Dislikes (in no particular order):

JB Magsaysay
discrimination
crowds
clowns!!!
my scars
split ends
looking at oily hair. Ugh!
sideburns
bad grammar
changes
annoying kids
long lines
waiting
my hips
my thighs
my stomach
or just… everything about my body
rude taxi drivers
taxi cabs that smell like undies that aren’t washed for weeks! YUCK!
know-it-alls
garbage bins with stuff already spilling out of it!
the smell of wet pavement
kiddie mascots
programming
hair gathering on drains (EEW!)
Joey Marquez
Willie Revillame
Joey De Leon
faulty computer hardware
MATH
smell of burnt rubber
pimples
stress
my feet
slapstick
motion sickness :(
clueless guys
spiders, especially those hairy ones!
community worship. Not for me.
migraines
hot summer afternoons
P.D.-fucking-A’s
really stiff hairspray
webpages with spooky things popping at you
over-easy eggs
crying in public
too many questions
discrete math (don’t tell Sir Karl!)
brownouts
beaches
sugar-coated anything
coffee places


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Bing asked me this question and told me to put my answers here: (Yuck! Maayo lang ka magpasulat sa ako blog unya dili ra ba ka mu-update sa imo! Pakauwaw laaaaang! Update diha uy! Last week pa to imong latest entry! Shame, shame!)


What do I look for in a guy?

inner turmoil
neatness
sexy hands
should be a bit weird
not the conventional sort of gwapo (I don’t like pretty boys)
appreciates and loves the works of JRR Tolkien
or at least know who Tolkien is *sighs*
must not be prettier than me
can take risks
no metrosexuals, please
must be smart
must know the value of family
must respect my space
must know there is a God (doesn’t have to be religious… just knows there IS a God :P)
hygiene very important
kind
appreciates me even tho I’m fat and depressed
must have a great sense of humor
shouldn’t be insecure about the other guys I hang out with
must be older than I am!
must be taller than I am
must be approved by my parents ;)
must be approved by my friends
must never ask me to choose him over my friends.. ‘cause I’d choose them anytime
can he look like John Delos Santos?

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Magmamahal Muli - by Sam and Say (video)

What's funny is tonight on UpLate, Mariel said that by popular demand, they're gonna show Sam and Say's performance again. And she said "Sige, eto na ang kanilang MTV!" I don't get it.. why do some people think MTV mean just videos? Isn't it an international network that plays music videos, some music-related news, etc? o.O

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Today, we had our graduation pictorial. I dreaded it 'cause I had to wear a skirt in public and I don't really have the legs for that. And last night, I went totally crazy 'cause we had to wear black, closed shoes and I don't have one! And the only closed, black thingie I have are my school shoes and my flats...which totally clashed with my khaki skirt! I wanted to pair it with tan, closed slip-ons, I sent an SMS to Diana to ask and she told me it should really be black AND closed. So I decided to use my savings to buy myself black pumps (the ones I soooo wanted to buy at Janylin but didn't feel I had a good reason to get it).

I woke up really early in the morning to buy those 'cause the pictorial starts at 1pm. I actually woke up at 9:30 (!!!), took a bath downstairs ('cause the stupid water won't come up), and had to de-frizz my hair with mousse before leaving (then blowdrying it, of course!).

Anyway, the original plan was to wear jeans and just change into the skirt at the photo place (since we're wearing the toga and it won't matter anyway)... but I didn't really want to bring lots of bags... So I gathered up enough courage to strut myself wearing a stupid skirt at the mall. Sheesh! Skirts are nice and all... but... I dunno... not for me. People said I was cute, tho... but I'm not sure if they really think so or they're just being nice. :P

But the pictorial was really fun! Or, well, it took the longest time and my new shoes are turning my toes to mush (pointy-toed), it felt like my toes are being struck by a hammer one by one over and over again, but people were goofing around and Corn was clicking away random shots with his camera and that made me forget about the pain (yes, pain!) for a while...besides, them shoes are sexy! The part where I get to have my solo pic is a bit boring, tho... I don't really like pretending to smile for some stranger (:P) and I previewed my pictures and my face looked like a darned dinnerplate (the photographer could delete them and make new ones but I figured I would still look the same anyway)! Ah, well... The funnest was during group shots 'cause we had the chance to have wacky ones too! Can't wait to see the prints!

It feels nice to wear the toga, tho... even though the rental people didn't bother to iron the darned things (they said it won't show at the pictures anyway). Of course, the thing didn't do anything for my figure and I looked like Jabba or some random pregnant lady (okay, no, but I don't have form!)... but it feels good. Like, you earned something to get to wear the Potterish garb (Sir Karl kept asking me where my wand is :P).

When it was done, we went back to Info (FYI, we had to WALK to the photo place WITH OUR TOGAS ALREADY ON and people shouted stuff like "Congratulations!" at us!), we handed over the togas, and had our second meeting for the graduation. We settled for November 29 as the FINAL date for graduation (because the sportsfest happens at 18, 19, and 20, I think) and all we had to do is decide on a venue, pay, and that's that. Somehow, I don't feel all that excited anymore. I guess the temporary date, the 22nd, claimed all my excitement and seeped it out of me. I'm still glad it will happen within this year, though.

Well, I went straight home after the meeting and took a nap (7-10pm) 'cause I was soooo sleepy from waking up real early in the morning. Saw PBB at Primetime (Diding said she gets updates on PBB from my blog! Ahahah!). Sam and Say's song was great! The housemates helped Sam translate a song he made to tagalog and it was about not looking for love but wait for it to come to you (blah, blah--but hey! I can relate! But what if you're waiting for somebody who's also waiting for somebody else? o.O). Their weekly task is to do a mini-concert on Friday! The PBB guys will dance Ricky Martin's 'She Bangs' (Ahahah! UMA was extra excited with this one), Franzen and Jason will rap, Sam and Say with their song, Uma and Cass will have some weird sexy dance thing, and I don't know what the other housemates will do yet. Chx has been the housemate's maid since yesterday for her good deed (give Say a pic of JB and give toys to 100 orphans). Cass had to wear fuzzy eyebrows and drew on spots on her face and unkempt hair 'cause BigBro wanted her to be ugly for a change (for her good deed). Jason had to get a mohawk, and Uma can't smoke for two days (still sacrificing for their good deeds)!

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Pretty worried about Bax. He had his bath today and Ate Wena said he shed most of his fur on a little space on his knee... and now it's just pink skin peeking out a bit. I hope it's just shedding his baby fur... Or 'cause he keeps scratching that place.

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What I hate most in the world is when people tell me I should be happy. These people that claim they know all about me and tell me crap like "You know, Marie, you could be happier." Yeah, right. But they don't know me.


Friends like Suzette and Co. are the people who probably have the right to tell me the same thing... only they don't. Why? Because they know me enough to know I get hurt when I hear those things. Why again? Because I already take whatever scrap of happiness the Universe decides to throw at me.They've seen me at my worst times and they know what I've been through. And those people who just claim they know me don't even know a fucking thing about how hard it is to see the bright side of stuff. They want to hang out with me like I'm some experiment they have to analyze, barely even scratching the surface and then conclude I'm just having a bad day. My friends, on the other hand, don't think I'm a freak and hang out with me, talk to me, and think about me in a normal way. Because it's the only way to get to know me.


Even my parents don't tell me I should be happy. Because they know I know and I'm working on it! People who point that thing out to me (the ones that claim they know me..but don't) almost always think I'm stupid that I "chose" not to be happy. No wonder I don't like people: they are judgemental and vocal about it, some are know-it-alls,some sympathize at the wrong things, and most don't really give a fuck and they just want you to know how really screwed you are to make them feel better about themselves.

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And yesterday, I saw this man just...staring at my chest! I was so pissed off! Why do guys do that anyway? Why don't they just stare at their own mom's boobs! Fucking perverts.

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Well, it was another boring day. I woke up at around 1pm 'cause I heard the buzzing from the AC stopped (meaning brown out, durr) and somehow, consistent, low sounds like the AC or the electric fan helps me relax and sleep (I remember turning on the fan in my old room in Butuan not 'cause it was hot but because of the sound). Weird, eh?

So anyway, I decided to take a bath so I won't feel sweaty and yucky and I had to wait for kuya to finish showering downstairs 'cause the stupid water can't come up to the bathroom upstairs. Well, when kuya was done, I shampooed, hot oiled, and conditioned my hair (happens every Sunday) and the usual soap and scrub. Fortunately, the electricity came back on so I was glad my hair won't have to be all weird and frizzy (it does that when it's hot). Mweh. I think I'm vain about hair... but not really sure... hmmm... :-P

What else? Hmm... well, didn't have lunch 'cause there was no rice left (which is kinda good in a way). I watched a few shows on TV then decided to go get groceries at Ayala. I saw Anne and we hung out for a bit. Got myself a new bottle of mousse 'cause I ran out of the stupid thing and I couldn't find my favourite hairspray (the one that holds yer hair but didn't feel stiff?) so I was mumbling all throughout the afternoon.

I left Ayala and while in the cab, I totally forgot that nobody's gonna cook for us tonight! And since I don't cook (it's kind of for the safety of everyone, including myself), I had the cab stop by the Country Mall so I'd grab a meal to go. I got those pizzamelt pies at Jollibee. It was... hmm... yummy.. and cheesy in a very sinful way... but the pie was so tiny (fits in yer hand!) so I don't feel too guilty about it.

While waiting for my order, I saw Carmela Carlobos! (411: old high school classmate, a.k.a. Miss Congeniality and Miss Perfect). Er.. yeah. She's still pretty. And tiny. Perfect hair. She's that type of girl that's the secret crush of majority of the male population in high school (and college...and I guess the rest of her life). It would've been really easy to hate her... but she's actually a nice person. So anybody out there who would want to hate her(particularly the girls who aren't so fortunate as she is, being perfect and all.. plus rich... and smart... not to mention talented), they'd feel guilty about it 'cause she's...well... not bitchy.

I saw her with some guy (prolly suitor), she saw me, she made her way to my table, the usual beso-beso (never got used to that one... not the type to), little questions, little answers, exchanged numbers. After that, she blew me a kiss and went back to where the guy was. And... I looked the other way. I'm never really comfortable with pretty people. I feel so... I dunno...unworthy. When I talk to pretty people, I feel my face getting larger, and pimples pop out, and my arms get fatter and my thighs...AGH! Nevermind. I just feel that when I'm inside their little space, my imperfections get magnified a hundred times.

While waiting for my order, I kept thinking about how easy pretty people have it. They just wave their little finger around and stuff happens. Carmela almost always never had to ask anybody to do stuff for her while in high school... she just had to stand there, look cute, and the oggling boys just.. do whatever she wanted. Okay, OA, but kinda true (around 60%). Not that I ever hated her or anything... I just wondered how we are just so... different. Like two whole universes. But, well, it's people like them that make people like me. Since I don't really have too much market value, I guess the most logical thing to do is be at least smart. 'Cause I figured.. if you're ugly AND dumb... you'll get nowhere.

Not saying I'm really smart, tho. I'm not schoolbook-smart. I'm smart in a weird way. I know about stuff other people don't care about (hello? Selkies?). But I guess that should do the job.

Anywaaaaay... went home after I got my order. I was greeted by Bax who got a sniff from the bags I was carrying (heheh). Went to my room, cranked up the AC, watched The Buzz (yeah, I watch it! Sue me!), switched the channel on St23 for Nginiig (ooooooh John!), played with Bax for a bit, then watched HP and the Prisoner of Azkaban (although I saw the thing in the cinema last year. Twice.).

I personally think the movie sucked. The effects were nice, and Ron was still really funny and cute, but there are stuff from the book that were totally left out in the movie! Like, how did Scabbers appeared in the Weasley family? Or how did Peter Pettigrew escape from Sirius? Or the history of the Marauder's Map! Ah, well... at least Snape's still sexy.

PBB:
5 people nominated this week! Sam (NOOOOO!), Cass, Jason (Again, NOOOOOO!), Franzen (Nominated by BB himself), and Chx (Also nominated by BB 'cause she asked Jen a ton of questions about what's happening outside when she's not allowed to).

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:21 AM

Day never ceases to amaze me. The doorknob in my room got stuck on the inside, so it's permanently locked. If I'm not careful, I would've locked myself out...which would be a very, very bad situation. I decided to fix the darned thing and looked up some tips online. This page helped me (but what do you care?). Well, it took time... but I got it fixed. I actually had to remove the entire knob off the door (Kuya's probably wondering why my door's really busy at 1:20 am..) and pretty surprised that I managed to! I'm not that useless after all!

*looks lovingly at her door knob*

Hope it won't bitch up tomorrow, tho. Taking the thing apart is hard work! I guess I found a new use for the Internet--- not that I'm planning to look up more handychoo house-stuff--- but I only use the 'net for the following:

1. Research
2. Cryptozoology
3. Homework
4. Calorie count of different foods (not that it mattered..)
5. MP3's
6. Forums
7. Blogging
8. Web development tips
9. About my bipolar disorder
10. IMDB
11. news (weird or otherwise)
12. about any ailment I'm feeling at the moment (like that nerve-ending thing and dry eyes incidents, etc)
13. Clothes (not that I buy them online)
14. Shoes (still not buying them online)
15. Hair tips

and now...

16. Home repair tips.

Weirdness.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 1:13 AM

A person gets at least one day of his life to let people know how truly pathetic he is.

My day was today.

I woke up 1:30 in the afternoon, when my alarm should've gone off thirty minutes before so I'd have enought time to prepare for a meeting at school. We were to talk about the graduation and probably about the costs for the venue and stuff. I arrived just in time.

The topic wasn't about schedules on pictorials and rehearsals... it was about WHEN the graduation was supposed to happen. Sir Karl said this year's graduates are too few and there would be a lot to shoulder if we're to proceed. If we're to graduate with the people from Raintree, there would be enough to lessen the fees... which will happen in March.

I wasn't expecting to hear that sort of thing and I wasn't too hot on the idea of delaying my graduation any longer. What's a few more pesos when it's for the confirmation that all your efforts finally bore something? And I can't accept that all of us had to settle for a later date just because some people didn't manage to pass UCLES. It's not fair. I waited for this blasted event for a whole year... marked my calendar eagerly... just to be told we're too few a number. It might not matter for Cornelius or that other guy because they've already graduated from something else... but this means so much for me, in more ways than one...

While people are discussing where the graduation should be held, I sat there and said nothing. I was already zoning out... This is not happening...

Some people in that classroom might be wondering what the heck I'm bitching about. I mean, what is a few more months of waiting, right? Yes, well, my parents have already planned on coming here on Tuesday. My dad has already asked permission for a whole week's leave from work. My sister would have to sacrifice an extra week of her vacation in Butuan. Ela would've skipped a few days of classes so she'd see what a real graduation would be like. And I was excited to see all of them. I miss my parents so much and I want them here so bad...

*sighs*

I hate everything right now. I know I'm being unreasonable, but I can't help it.

Anyway, the meeting droned on... I wasn't listening anymore. I was thinking about how my parents would react when I tell them the news... They would be sad, I'm sure..

I was brought back into this stupid, moronic world because Cornelius said something in a weird tone that was supposed to be funny. Then the most shocking thing happened: I cried. Yes. I cried. In the classroom. In public. I sat there covering my eyes with a hankie while desperately hoping I'd shrink down a gazillion times over and disappear.

I cried because I was so frustrated... I cried because everything I ever wanted and those things that I've waited for so long... when they are only at arm's reach... they disappear. Or, well, they take a few more steps away from me. I cried because I was praying that this graduation... my little moment... where I'd know I've done something great about my sordid life... will happen already. And it won't. At least not next week.

The meeting ended and I already had a pile of torn paper on my armchair (friends observed I do that when I zone out... find a piece of paper, tear it to tiny pieces, and then make little crumpled balls out of it) and scooped them away to throw them in the trash. I noticed people avoided looking at me... I know they're uncomfortable around me 'cause of what happened. Ah, well.

I went outside the school, randomly remembering that actress Anne Curtis brushed past by me as I entered the mall. She was about to exit and I didn't notice her bodyguards and stuff and they were supposed to hold off the people so she'd pass through. I wonder if she had ever experienced her graduation being cancelled or she's too pretty to care... hm.

I walked aimlessly around SM for about an hour, just trying to sort things out in my head. I noticed there are a lot of people...and I forgot it was already Saturday. It's the effect of the graduation bit... the other days didn't matter except the 22nd. *sighs*

I bought a curling iron just for the heck of it. I figured that if the world will fuck me up every chance it gets, at least I'd look good. I surprised myself by buying a skirt from Penshoppe... I don't even know if I'd really wear it.. although I did hear Miss Helen tell us the girls should wear skirts on the graduation pictorial. Ah, well... might use it.

I wanted to cry some more.. but it would've been really weird if I do it walking around SM. So I went home. I already called my dad to tell him it won't happen next Saturday. My mom told me sternly that I should update them of the new date ASAP. I told her I cried like a whiny, spoiled bitch who didn't get her way back in the meeting... and she told me it's alright. It wasn't my fault and my reaction was, well, understandable.

During the cab ride, Dexter sent me an SMS (he was at the meeting). Wait.. I still have it on my phone:

Btw hangyo.a lang tarung imo dad mar ha nga pa extend
lng iya stay sa cebu, i understand how u feel and i hate 2 c u cry... ingats
alwez.. :)

I felt so much better! We're not exactly close and all, but that little SMS probably stopped me from doing something stupid, like locking myself in my room and get more depressed than usual... or withdrawing all my subjects in the second half and sulk all semester... Sometimes, I guess, the most heartfelt gestures come from those that you don't expect would show you one. Thank you so much, Dex! You're a pal! :-)

When I arrived home, I discovered the curling iron needed a converter..which wasn't included in the box. Fuck. But weirdly, I managed to smile... I was thinking since my day was fucked up ... why not expect other stupid things to happen? It's not like the day's ended yet.

I decided to call Sir Karl to apologize for the crying incident a few hours ago. He said it was alright... I was glad he understood. We talked some more about my parents and what the whole grad bit means to me and stuff. I'm a bit surprised that of all the people I'd tell my frustrations to, it's him. Heheh. Like Dexter... understanding and concern came from the unlikeliest people. And I appreciate it so much.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 5:56 PM

I woke up quite early, had breakfast, and turned on the TV. When I saw HBO, a movie was just starting, so I kept it there to see what it was. Boy, was I glad! It was that mock documentary (note: MOCKUMENTARY) The Buried Secret of M. Night Shyamalan! It was the people of some Sci Fi network who originally set off to interview the director while on location during the shoot of The Village. Then one thing led to another, and they found themselves digging into his past. They discovered that the movies he made (Unbreakable, Signs, The Sixth Sense, etc) were actually real events that happened in his life! In their search, they found out that Shyamalan drowned in a pond (with a REALLY long history of people drowning) when he was a kid, was clinically dead in around 30 minutes, before being brought back from the dead again. Apparently, this had some effect on him since he's started seeing dead people (hello? Sixth Sense?) and had this "imaginary" friend named "Henry"(who turned out to be some kid who also drowned in the same pond decades ago). Then they were interviewing his childhood friends and watching his amateur videos and discovered a lot of stuff pointing to places that proves he really does communicate with things from another world!

I know it's not real and all, but it was a little crappy! It's like The Blair Witch.. where you're led to believe it's really happening... only with big stars like Adrien Brody and Johnny Depp (mmmm... Depp) But Shyamalan was a good sport.. but we all know it's some publicity stunt for people to see The Village. Heheh..dunno about nice acting tho he had me creeped out in a few scenes where he appeared really uncomfy (and upset) with the persistent questions about Henry and his past from the documentary people. But he deserves a REAL documentary about what he really is 'cause he's pretty unique in terms of his movies...

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On PBB:



Well, when I heard that somebody's gonna get a 100-second moment again, I thought the ABS wheels are turning to save face from that rule-breaking Say+JB incident (so they decided to have all housemates experience the same thing). At least now, it's pretty fair.

Tonight was Tito Doug's turn! His daughter is celebrating her birthday soon and he wanted to give her her bicycle as her present (from Franzen's good deed). It was the most touching 100 seconds 'cause they hugged and his daughter was as cute as a button! After the 100 seconds, BB made Jason cover his eyes with his headband again and his wife entered the confession room and gave him a kiss! Priceless! It was sooo touching!

Too bad Say wasted her 100 seconds on a guy she only met for 3 weeks rather than her mother who's celebrating her birthday this month as well. ABS shouldn't have decided on impulse to shove that moron JB back into the house to see Say when they should've arranged a meeting with her mother who happened to have BROUGHT HER INTO THIS WORLD!!! Bleh.

Anyway, happy for Jason. :)

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Life:

My sister went home to Butuan today. She boarded at around 4:00pm and since it's her first time, I had to accompany her to the pier. I had to miss a meeting with the school council (we're looking for sponsors for the upcoming Sportsfest). Hmm... soooo sorry, Diana! Hope it wasn't too hard to look around for sponsors at SM!

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What else? I can't wait for my parents to get here for my graduation! Ela is coming too (she wants to see what a graduation would look like :P)! Super excited! Too bad we're only allowed two people for guests, tho. That will obviously be my parents.. and I guess it won't hurt to slip in my sister and Ela. Hmm...

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 1:57 AM

Wah! I bought a book that to get myself out of a funk, but it totally just got me sadder. It's Eleven Minutes, by Paulo Coelho. S'about a girl named Maria who's a prostitute.. and looking for love. Yes, well, me's not exactly hot enough for that profession, but we're looking for the same thing. S'just makes me feel a bit discouraged that her story's telling me I still have a LOT to experience before I could even define the word.

Well, I'm not stupid. I know love isn't like what you see in most movies. I don't claim to know a lot about it 'cause I'm still young... but I'm old enough to know it can be very painful. Some people confuse love as security or companionship or even looks. But as I read further, I found out love is about freedom. And it basically means loving is without having to expect being loved in return---which would hurt like heck. But even though it does, you just have to love and love everyday... 'cause it's the only way to keep everything about you alive. I guess since you're made out of love, it makes sense that you need to love to live. *shrugs*

I've talked with lots of people who are already discouraged about loving others. Or.. well... they feel they should stay away from loving other people 'cause most of the time the feeling isn't mutual. Sometimes it's funny that my friends and I, after complaining about the opposite sex and the havoc that comes with them, we just end up silent... thinking... or maybe just too sad for words. We sit in our respective rooms (you know who you are :P), trying to pick our brains about why the world is what it is.

Someone said it's not worth it.
Another pointed out it's better to focus on something else.
One of us figured we're just doomed to be sucked into the love-hate-love cycle over and over again until we die...

Frankly, I agree with the stuff they said. Heck, I've even contributed a few statements demeaning that little L-word and the people that're part of the package. And even though we bitch about love... at the back of our heads, we all know we're BOUND to be feeling it again soon. So why the torture?

I love torturing myself --- not the kind involving leather and chains --- but where I submit myself to gut-crushing, heart-breaking, brain-whacking pain. That's what I did in high school. I was wondering what love is, and I thought I felt something for this guy for seven years. Never told him, though. I settled for watching him from afar, talking to his girlfriend. I thought it was so absolutely noble of me to love somebody so much that it hurts and without having to let that person know what he does to you. In the end, the pain weighed more than the love that I forgot all about that person and focused on how to hurt myself more. Didn't do me any good, that.

Until now, I still wonder if I still love people for pain. I wonder if it was my excuse to stick to my thoughts and my room. But, well, sometimes.. like any normal person.. I do wish loving is like what the Grimm brothers wrote about.

Frankly, I'm tired of thinking about love. I'm tired of wondering who I'd end up with in the future (with somebody or by myself) and I'm tired of dealing with the consequences of throwing my usual caution to the wind and jump into something that may or may not catch you.

I ask forgiveness for those I tried to love...and that it wasn't enough. I ask forgiveness for those who tried to love me...and that I was too blind to see. And I ask forgiveness for MYSELF... because of all the effort I made to love others, I forgot about you.

I wish for everybody to have all the love in the world. In fact, they can have what's reserved for mine.

I'm not built for love at all.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:48 AM

You scored as Goth. You're A Goth! Goth 85% Preppy 60% Trendy 60% Rocker, Mosher 55% Emo 50% Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev 30% Skater 10% What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t created with QuizFarm.com

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You scored as Loner. Loner 81% Goth 63% Drama nerd 56% Geek 38% Punk/Rebel 31% Stoner 25% Ghetto gangsta 6% Prep/Jock/Cheerleader 0% What's Your High School Stereotype? created with QuizFarm.com

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You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets. Unipolar Depression 100% Eating Disorders 58% Borderline Personality Disorder 50% Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder 8% Antisocial Personality Disorder 8% Schizophrenia 8% Which mental disorder do you have? created with QuizFarm.com

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You scored as Yes, you are depressed. Yes, you are depressed 88% Contented 68% No, you're not depressed 28% THE ULTIMATE DEPRESSION TEST created with QuizFarm.com

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You scored as Verbal/Linguistic. You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across. You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers. Verbal/Linguistic 93% Intrapersonal 71% Musical/Rhythmic 54% Bodily/Kinesthetic 50% Interpersonal 50% Visual/Spatial 43% Logical/Mathematical 25% The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences created with QuizFarm.com

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You scored as Willow Rosenberg. You are a very smart individual. Though, like everyone else, you've made mistakes. You've changed over the last few years, so have a lot of things in your life, but you've got great friends who love you and are there for you through anything. Willow Rosenberg 67% Rupert Giles 67% Dawn Summers 63% Spike 63% Anya 50% Tara Maclay 50% Buffy Summers 50% Xander Harris 42% Which Buffy The Vampire Slayer Character Are You Most Like!? created with QuizFarm.com

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Prudence 75% Justice 71% Hope 71% Faith 43% Charity 43% Temperance 43% Fortitude 39% The Seven Heavenly Virtues created with QuizFarm.com

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You scored as Gil Grissom. You are Grissom! Gil Grissom 85% Greg Sanders 75% Jim Brass 65% Sara Sidle 60% Nick Stokes 55% Al Robbins 35% Warrick Brown 30% Catherine Willows 30% Which CSI character are you? created with QuizFarm.com

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You scored as Schizoid. People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. Unlike avoidant schizoids genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived by others as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners." Schizoid 90% Schizotypal. 80% Avoidant 65% Borderline 65% Paranoid 60% Histronic 60% Dependant 60% Obsessive-Compulsive 55% Antisocial 40% Narcissistic 30% Personality Disorder Quiz created with Quizfarm.com

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 4:24 AM

The PBB Boys (minus Rico)


Left to right: Sam, Uma, JB, Tito Dougs (Jason), Franzen, Bob

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 1:51 AM

Well, since I slept at around 7 in the morning today, I woke up at 5pm. My sister and I were supposed to go watch Dark Water at Ayala after her exam, but it turned out that it wasn't shown anymore and we checked clickthecity.com to see if there's anything interesting to watch... nothing.

So we went to the Country Mall instead 'cause my sister wants to withdraw some money (for a ticket home and to buy a backup phone... her idea). I went with her 'cause I was really bored. She bought this Bird phone (just p2750) so she'd have another one in case her Sony Ericsson gets stolen (happened to her twice!) and so she could use her Smart SIM card.

<-- thizzizit.

After buying her phone, we decided to eat dinner at Pizzahut. I took a few pics of my hand.. 'cause I figured my pink nail polish wouldn't last 'til Friday 'cause it's starting to crack at the tips.



What else? Hmr... Oooh! And here's a pic of the yummy fruit salad I bought yesterday ('cause I was bored and I thought the yumminess should be immortalized in digital form.)



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I'm thinking of buying a curling iron. And maybe when my mom comes here, I'd wanna get highlights on my hair. I wanna feel good about myself.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:29 AM

I'm restless. I've been awake all night and now the sky's already turned purple..
I think I'm heartbroken...
Life is breaking my heart.

I can't quite explain it, but I feel like the world has continued on turning without me. I feel so alone even though I'm constantly with people. At the same time I feel like I'm choking with every single thing that has happened to me for the last few months. I feel disappointed and rejected and misled and used and tired and evrything just keeps on coming at me in tidal waves.

My recent enemy is failure, brought about with that wretched result from UCLES. I've been losing sleep just wondering what I did wrong and how I allowed myself to not study hard enough. I go to school feeling there's not much use to try hard anymore because if I failed once, it's likely I'd fail again... and I don't like the feeling of trying so hard only to feel crushed in the end.

Discrete Math is beginning to be a pain... I want to stop going to my classes, since I feel like I'm going to fail this one anyway. I wanted to study for it but I can't hardly get the book open. I feel like my mind's too preoccupied over something but I can't pinpoint what. It's probably busy thinking about something trivial, like my life.

Sky's getting lighter now...

I'm afraid of going to school now..
I don't want to think about UCLES and progress exams and exercises..

*sighs*

I want to die.. but it seems like living is more appropriate a punishment for a moron like me. If only I hadn't made huge expectations for myself... If only consequences of failures wouldn't mean an extra hour's work for my dad... If only I wouldn't care so much about reaching my finish line the shortest possible time... and I've still got so many things to do after...

So much in my head right now... it feels like it's poured some of its problems to my heart. I can't stand feeling like this... especially when there's so much at stake. There are too many valuable people to not disappoint, even when they assure me it's alright.

What if I'll never make it?
What if I really am that disappointing daughter who turned out great at the start and burned out at the end?

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 5:13 AM

Sleep to Dream - Fiona Apple



I tell you how I feel, but you don't care

I say tell me the truth, but you don't dare

You say love is a hell you cannot bear

And I say gimme mine back and then go there - for all I care

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream

You got your head in the clouds

And you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body, and this voice

Cannot be stifled by your deviant ways

So don't forget what I told you

Don't come around

I got my own hell to raise

I have never been so insulted in all my life

I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride

First you run like a fool just to be at my side

And now you run like a fool

But you just run to hide

And I can't abide

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream

You got your head in the clouds

And you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body, and this voice

Cannot be stifled by your deviant ways

So don't forget what I told you

Don't come around

I got my own hell to raise

Don't make it a big deal, don't be so sensitive

We're not playing a game anymore

You don't have to be so defensive

Don't you plead me your case, don't bother to explain

Don't even show me your face, 'cuz it's a crying shame

Just go back to the rock from under which you came

Take the sorrow you gave and all the stakes you claim

And don't forget the blame

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream

You got your head in the clouds

And you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body, and this voice

Cannot be stifled by your deviant ways

So don't forget what I told you

Don't come around

I got my own hell to raise

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 1:20 AM

Well, nothing much happened today. I was feeling lazy to go to school, but thinking Sir Karl's gonna recap some stuff that's gonna appear in the exam (which will happen next week), I took a quick bath, decided to forget about blowdrying my hair, put on light makeup, got the first thing I saw in the closet, got into my jeans and left... only to arrive at school and discover Sir Karl won't be holding classes. Hrmph.. and I was having such weird dreams!

I had three weird dreams this week:

One:
Rikko came to visit! He totally dragged me around, eating out, and piling loads of rice on his plata 'cause he said he didn't get enough of those in the States! Plus he mentioned he's planning on bringing whole sacks of it when he goes back! Ahaha!

Two:
Some weird group decided to play some weird game in my old room back in Butuan. One is a ghostly thing, floating around and playing tricks on everyone... and some guy was ticked off so he went downstairs, lynched himself, and his ghost went through my room's door and trapped the other ghost in a small glass dome! Then he went back downstairs to his hanging body, and said, "Before I return to my body, I pray that this house will be back to being protected from Evil again." No kidding! Then he went back inside his body and went back upstairs!

Three:
Chris kidnapped me! I was touring around with my parents at some area in Butuan near a cemetery... what's new about it is that the people decided to do a Harry Potter theme and lots of HP stuff are seen here and there... even Gryffindor banners! And I was about to donate money and put it in some box (in front of a statue of a saint!) when Chris slipped on a handcuff on my arm and told me I shouldn't shout! He took me away from the cemetery/HP place/whatever thing and next thing I knew, I was at some dorm room and I was cuffed on some bedpost! Chris told me I can't make a noise 'cause his roommate might know... but that doesn't make any sense since I'm there in plain sight anyway. o.O
When Chris was away at school, I hung out with some girls outside the room (no idea how I got the cuffs off) and they were sitting in some sofa. A pretty chinita girl told me she liked Chris, but she's sad 'cause Chris only wanted them to be friends. I was so busy listening to her that I didn't even mentioned to anybody I was kidnapped! Wah!

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Anyway, since there isn't any class, I decided to go around SM and look at stuff. I bought another Paulo Coelho book (I already have the Alchemist, and By The River Piedra I sat down and Wept). The title was "Eleven Minutes".

After buying the book, I decided to buy fruit salad from Thirsty and then I went home. Hmr..
boring, neh? The salad was yummy, tho... I love the melon chunks! Also the crunchy corn bits.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:39 AM

Today's kinda a testament to my extraordinary luck. After waiting for two months, my UCLES results finally arrived. I passed 219, but I failed 217. And to think I worried about 219 more than 217... For some reason, my normalization skills aren't all that great after all.

All throughout Discrete Math, I was wondering how my parents would react to my first ever experience in failing UCLES... Sir Karl went on and on about functions while I was practically sweating (in near-arctic Info temperature, I might add!) about how to break the news to the parental units. Wonder if they'll hate me...

After the class, I SMSed my mom, telling her I didn't do so well. To my surprise, she said it's okay... failing is kinda part of the whole college experience (yeah, well, I wanted to set some OA record about not failing ever). She told me it's high time to fail for once... which is strange, but I was so relieved that they dun wanna send me home and do nursing or whatever.

I'm still sad, though. I've been sad for two weeks now. I mean, sure, a little happy here and there, but overall...kinda sad. I've been having this weird feeling that I'm going downhill. Especially about school. My enthusiasm is just not there anymore. It's a miracle that I could find strength to wake up and join Discrete Math. Heck, I'm AFRAID when I think of Discrete Math.

I can't understand it, really. I was on a roll the last two years... then that stupid depression episode popped out and from then on, I felt like some mindless, uncaring drone.. I can't find the energy to exert too much effort, especially on subjects that I never really like (Java, D. Math..)

*sighs*
At least I'll be graduating First Year.
At least I didn't fuck that up.

S'like... "Great... I'm fat AND stupid."
Geez!

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Some pictures of Pao:


It's pretty dark at their hotel room since Tita's already turned off the lights and only had a lamp on (sleeping time for Popo).


Ela's first time to lose a tooth! Heheh. (she sent this one today)

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Mweh... been sleeping all day. Went to the Cebu Grand Hotel to visit Paolo.. heheh. Can't believe he's so BIG! Still cute and smells like baby powder.. but he's gotten huge! ^_^

Anyway, they went home today at 10am (new sched via Surigao). I woke up just in time for Nginiig: The Hidden Files. Was disappointed that John didn't show up, tho. :( I miss him! Wah! My week isn't complete without the guy... Ah, well. Prolly gonna see my future husband next Sunday (asus!).

What else? Oooh! The Bob news got me feeling so sad for him! During Primetime, he was interviewed by Toni and he was crying 'cause he really wanted to go back in the PBB House... but Big Brother already decided he should be evicted 'cause, well, his health should come first. Aww... poor Bobilicious...

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Bob is Evicted; Viewers to Choose his Replacement
Sunday, October 09, 2005 4:37 PM

It’s final. At four o' clock this afternoon, Big Brother has decided to evict Bob from Pinoy Big Brother due to his unstable medical condition. The aspiring politician failed to go back to the house within the 24-hour deadline that Big Brother set yesterday. because of this unprecedented event, the viewers now have the chance to choose who among the previously evicted housemates they want to bring back in Pinoy Big Brother.

Big Brother’s Big Switch

Starting tonight until Saturday (October 15), viewers can text their votes for ex-housemate that they want to serve as Bob's replacement. The choices include Rico, Jenny, JB and Racquel. This is in accordance to the Big Brother House Rules, which states that “A new housemate may be called in to replace any person who leaves voluntarily or who has been disqualified by Big Brother. This replacement can be a former housemate who had previously been evicted.”


The ex-housemate that will have the most number of votes will become Bob’s replacement and get another chance to go back to Big Brother’s house.

The final tally of the text votes will be announced on the live 4th Nomination Night of Pinoy Big Brother, this coming Saturday 9:30PM on ABS-CBN.

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Well, I feel better today. My nose isn't itching to be blown anymore and my headache's gone. I went to school and because I have this extraordinary sort of luck, I fell right into the big bad jaws of an exam. Good thing it was about something I already know... if Sir Karl decided to do an exam about whatever they talked about for the past two days.. then I would've had a zero mark. Not that I'm confident I passed, tho. It's still pretty hard. And right now, after being sick and all, knowing what to do with relations is FAR from my head. Mweh.

Before we went inside the classroom, we hung out near the course consultants' corner. Cornelius picked the wrong time to criticize my work on the Acquaintance party photo album. How should I know the pages with the picture thumbnails would load faster when I link the original pictures to their miniature versions rather than just resizing them thru code? It loaded pretty fast in my computer and nobody told me I should bear in mind everyone else's computer capacities. I like Cornelius and all, but some days, I really don't like being criticized about something.. especially in that know-it-all tone he has. He reminds me of some holier-than-though preachy guy, pointing out the hundred and one ways to go to Hell.

I mean, I appreciate the criticism.. really... in good days, it's all fine and dandy. But I've just been sick and my mind can't really process anything and the introduction he did ("Can you accept criticism from something you did?") just didn't work for me. It just aggravated me more 'cause, well, when you say something like that, it just makes one wonder what the heck you did wrong!

Oh, well. It was my fault that I didn't tell him that didn't feel like being criticized anyway. But it did hurt me a bit 'cause I was pretty proud of my work. Cornelius meant well anyway. (thanks!)

And before classes started, Trixie and I got yummy fruit salads from Thirsty (watermelon, lychee, sweet corn, buko, mango). And I think imma be addicted to another nummynum thing from Thirsty! Wah! (Maimai's fault! heheh)

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After school, I went straight to Ayala to meet my sister. We decided to watch Dubai (her idea!) before the thing disappears from the cinemas. I admit that I'm a bit curious about the movie... but it wasn't really a 'must' for me to see. Besides..there's always CinemaOne. Heheh.

Well, the movie started at 4:40 and I arrived at 5:15 (and my sister's still trying to get a taxi from Banilad) so I sent her an SMS telling her we'd watch the one on 6:50. Since I didn't want to walk around and spend my money on something random, I decided to treat myself to another manicure and pedicure session at Salon de Rose. This time its this cute fuschia pink color! Yay! This time I learned from experience and paid for my m&p BEFORE the session so I wouldn't ruin the polish on my nails when I dig for my wallet inside my bag. Heheh.

So...we watched Dubai. It was close to dinner time so we decided to get some dogs at Smokey's (mine was hawaiian and my sis got some super cheesy thingie..). YUM!


Okay. The movie. Well, erm.. nothing much to say about it, really. Or, well, the acting was nice. Claudine's still crying about something... she keeps running and her big boobies keep bobbing up and down...and I'm bothered about Aga's lower teeth. Oooh... but Dubai looks nice, though! Especially the part where they were cruising on the sand dunes! Pretty interested to check the place out myself (if I have money, durr!).

Nothing really special about the movie. The brother vs. brother for a girl thing's been done before (didn't Aga do a cousin vs. cousin for girl thing on one of his movies?). Pero what's good is you'd feel nice about being Pinoy. 'Cause sometimes I do feel weird about being one myself... we get labelled for all the wrong reasons (and sometimes we're proud of that).. hmph..

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AND PAO-PAO'S HERE IN CEBU!

He arrived just today with his mom and dad.. gonna participate in another seminar from Resources for the Blind. He's doing that today and visiting his lola at someplace-in-Cebu-that-starts-with-an-M. So I'm going to hang out with the precious pookie tomorrow. *is excited*
I miss Popo sooo muchosly! Imma hug him an' kiss him an' snuggle him 'til he slaps me crazy! Wah! Love you POPO!

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And that's about it. My mom called me yesterday to tell me Uncle Joel's present for my graduation is the Hong Kong thing. Which is NICE! *hops around* My mom told me she'd be coming with us (meaning Dian, Krystel, Dana) as well! I'm pretty sure Krystel and Dana's parents will be going too.. so I'm hoping my dad could make it (or else I wouldn't go!). I mean, HK's fun and all.. but I don't think I'd enjoy it knowing my dad's staying home! If my mom will go, my dad should go too! If not.. I'M NOT GOING! Wah!

Oh, and also reading the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. My sister had a copy and I usually don't read those weird bopper princess-ey books but my sister assured me it isn't super pink/glittery so I guess I could read it.

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I woke up with a fever today. :-(
I had to miss class (again) and I decided to just sleep it off. I turned the AC on and took Tempra and sipped some tea before going back to bed.


What else? Uhm.. nothing much happened. I woke up at around 6pm (to some reggae music my sister decided to play on the computer) and I was super hungry so I had ramen. Watched PBB (in both ABS and Studio23) and...er... nothing much after. Pretty worried about school, though, 'cause I already missed two days of Math and it's gotten pretty complicated.. wah. Sir Karl is sooo gonna grill me next week! -.-;

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Good Deeds from the Housemates:

BB gave the HM's the chance to do two good deeds in exchange of a little sacrifice.

Uma
Good deeds:
1. Give the street children a free meal in a fastfood chain
2. Give financial assistance to Racquel's sick grandma

Sacrifice:
- not to smoke for two days

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Say
Good deeds:
1. Give Franzen a set of kitchen appliances
2. Donate food to sampaguita vendors at Quiapo church

Sacrifice:
- cut three inches off her hair (she loves her hair)

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Chx
Good deeds:
1. Give Say a picture of JB
2. Give toys to kids in an orphanage

Sacrifice:
- be the maid in the PBB house and not speak english for two days

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Jason
Good deeds:
1. Donate a tv set at a correctional in Batangas
2. Pair of socks for Franzen (he says he feels cold all the time)

Sacrifice:
- semi-kalbo hairstyle :P

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Franzen
Good deeds:
1. A bicycle for Jason's son on his birthday
2. Clothes for a hundred kids in Payatas

Sacrifice:
- shave his head

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Nene
Good deeds:
1. Teach Racquel how to play the flute
2. Donate clothes and food in an orphanage

Sacrifice:
- administer personality development on Franzen

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Racquel
Good deeds:
1. Trainers and new pants for Franzen
2. Meds for a home for the aged

Sacrifice:
- sew two polo shirts for Franzen

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Bob
Good deeds:
1. Bob Day at PGH’s pediatric ward
2. Give Say a pic of JB (same as Chx's request)

Sacrifice:
- allow housemates to spray paint his hair with different colors for one week

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Cass
Good deeds:
1. Give Uma a picture of them together (dunno why...)
2. Donate toys in her old elementary school in Davao

Sacrifice:
- lose 3 lbs. in one week

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Sam
Good deeds:
1. Donate clothes for his relatives in Surigao
2. Allow Uma to recieve a letter from his sister ( he misses her sis)

Sacrifice:
- teach the HM's how to figure skate using rollerblades

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Beh... being sick sucks!!!

I got up feeling worse than yesterday and I decided to go to school 'cause I promised myself I won't school this week and I felt guilty missing class last friday 'cause I forgot to set the alarm..

Anyway, I arrived at school and Trixie and Co. decided to go to Salad Dressing to check out some stuff. I went with them since class hasn't started yet anyway. The place looked nicer now.. more cute stuff like sparkly mobile phone straps and metallic-colored bags (cute!). I wanted to buy one of the straps but I need to withdraw money and the line outside was long. Diana found cute Emily The Strange pins( <-- this is her..) and she bought three. Heheh. I was tried holding in my sneezles and I wanted to blow my nose soooo bad but I don't think it would be nice to do that. And because I couldn't, my head was ouchy and so is the back of my neck. :(

I was feeling so darned bad that I decided to go home. I figured if I stay I couldn't understand Sir Karl (or hear, since blowing my nose too much made my ears feel like they're stuffed with cotton so I can't hear much..). So I took a cab and went home...

That's about it for now. I think I really have to rest. Weh...

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< Dragons? > cool!

Anyway, been sick. Had a bad cold and it started with a sore throat... Mweh. :( My nose was so ticklish the whole time I was at class and I couldn't concentrate! I kept counting the minutes 'til I could go home to sleep it off but time decided to mock me and went soooo slow. -.-;
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Another of Jason's funny antics during one of his conversations with BigBrother: < here >

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<-- cute!

AND ANOTHER PBB RULE VIOLATION!





The task was to create clothes out of newspapers. HELLO PBB STAFF?!? YOU CAN READ ABOUT WHAT'S GOING OUTSIDE WITH THOSE??? -.-;

Stupid staff.

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Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:19 AM

Why's my stuff in there? o.O
Is this legal?

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Well, Sunday... went to bed at around 6am and woke up at 4pm (wow.. 10 hours!). I took a shower and put on some hot oil on my hair. I had to keep the stuff on for at least 20 minutes (I usually wash it off after an hour) so I put on my showercap and went back inside my room to watch some TV.

Hmm hmm... as usual, I checked out The Buzz. I know I shouldn't be watching this junk, but it's addictive and there's nothing interesting on other channels. Kris looked great on red, Christy...well... Christy's Christy... and Boy Abunda missed Ruffa's kid's birthday party because he needed to 'work' (meaning reporting th e latest gossips).

After the part where some kid actor from GMA got drunk and smashed on some poor vendor and killed him, I went back to the shower to wash off the hot oil. At the same time thinking why some rich people think they could get away with everything just because they're rich. I don't get it... they already have everything... and all they had to do was help the people they stepped on during those times they decide to act stupid for the heck of it... like drinking and driving *sighs*.

Anyway, done with the hair...
aaaah.. nothing like fresh, clean, healthy hair against yer shoulders. ^_^

The Buzz was over so I switched to Studio23 to watch Nginiig: The Hidden Files. As usual, John kicked paranormal ass. And I'm still hoping he'd be my future husband. Wahahahahah!---okay, nevermind. He's just cute... and I still haven't said anything about his butt yet. Nyeh. :P Okay, but seriously, I admire the dude. He's not your conventional "gwapo", but he's sexy in a deeper sense. Just the subtle change of his expression during one of his quests is sexy.. I dunno..

Wah! I'm obsessed! Leave me alone! :P

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After Nginiig, I watched Y-Speak. The topic was extra hot 'cause it's about PBB (If it's done anything good for the country at all). The Pro-PBB panel was composed of the ex-housemates (JB, Jenny, Rico), the PBB's resident psychiatrist, and a student leader. The Anti-PBB's were Dolly Carvajal, a priest, a wannabe lawyer, and some other girl who never really got the concept of reality tv.

It was really unfair that they pitted people like the ex-housemates against a columnist, the lawyerette, and the priest 'cause Jen, Rico, and JB aren't really all that eloquent in voicing out their opinions. What's worse is that the judges already have preconcieved opinions about PBB (with morality and values): Chairman Laguardia and 2 other professors! It's already imbalanced because we all know the conservative "elders" don't have much faith in how the youth absorb information on TV.

Good thing the PBB pschiatrist and the student dude were there to carry their entire panel. JB tried pointing out that you DO learn something out of the show and you can't ever judge the housemate's decision to join 'cause they didn't experience it themselves... but the know-it-all lawyerette said it can't be reality since they are in a controlled environment. I can't believe that I was actually praying for JB to strangle the woman! Ahahah!

What's most annoying is what Dolly Ann said.."LET's NOT FIND MEANING IN THE MEANINGLESS." The audience actually booed and JB looked like he swallowed something fierce. Heheh. Her point was that it's a game, people are playing it, and they're out for the money. DURR.. that's the whole point of the show, you Pro-GMA wench! -.-; She said ABS is only taking advantage of the many people who want to give up their privacy and it brings in the money.

Well, for me, PBB is a mini-world that reflects how people are in a real society. While Miss Ateneo said it's not reality since there's no TV, phones, radio, etc.. I think the idea there is to go back to the basics.. human interaction. With no other distractions, these people have nothing else to do but know each other and do stuff together. The tasks given to the housemates gives us an opportunity to see the best and worst of the housemates and we also get to see that in ourselves. The concept of PBB is just what the Pinoys need....empowerment. Take JB for example. People evicted him not because he's loaded and he didn't need the money.. but because he was being a prick. So Pinoys get to voice out their opinions about him, and also had the change to get together to oust him. We saw what we could do when we do it together, and it rocked!

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Erm, well, anyway, yesterday was Nomination Night. I jumped for joy when Toni announced she'd be doing the hosting that night 'cause Willie was in Australia. Ahahah!

Results are:

Racquel and Cass!

This is Racq's third nomination (as JB predicted, "Ate, third time at bibingo ka na!") which would mean the housemates still don't like her. I think it's time for her to leave (even though Cass can be bossy and pikon sometimes).

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PBB Images for the day:

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This is why MTRCBoring cancelled PBB last Sunday!

Cass+Chx kissing (during Sam's Luau Welcome party... They only showed the part where Chx kissed Sam). Babawest reason to cancel a show. Sheesh! (or, well, the kiddies might get confused... but that's why there's PBB UpLate!)

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Awww... isn't Sam the cutest? (I call him Puppy Sam).

Dum dee dum... hmm.. nothing much happened today. My sister and I decided to see Land of the Dead in the afternoon. Nothing special about the story... but I wanted to see good old zombie violence, blood, and gore and I got that. Heheh.

After the movie, we went around the mall to check out stuff on sale. I got myself a sparkly bag and a few blouses...
There goes my savings. *sighs*
Ah, well. Totally worth it. It's a Mall-wide sale and you can't pass up a cute bag that's 50% off the tag!

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..Aww... just saw The Return of the King (for the nth time) on HBO... I always end up teary-eyed in the end... :'( I know it's corny, but just thinking that a great story has finally ended makes me really sad. The elves have gone to the Undying Lands and it's a bitter-sweet ending.

*listening to Annie Lennox singing "Into the West"*

What can you see on the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea, a pale moon rises
The ships have come to carry you home

And all will turn to silver glass
a light on the water
gray ships pass

into the West...

*sniff, sniff*

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Anyway, I totally missed my class today! I woke up around noon 'cause my sister was watching Pa-Siyam and the weird sound effects startled me (it's a horror movie). I had lunch and I was still a bit sleepy so I went back to bed... and I woke up at 4pm! I was an hour late and Abigail's SMS alert woke me up. I forgot to turn on my alarm so I overslept and it was too late to try to go to school. Thank God Sir Karl decided to not do classes ('cause it turned out nobody else was there except Abigail). Nyeah... Pretty relieved.

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I was surprised to get an SMS from Joseph today! We didn't have much communication nowadays 'cause we were both busy (especially him 'cause he's doing some nurse thingies) so it was a pleasant surprise that he bothered to poke me thru mobile phone to ask me how I am and tell me random news about our old high school classmates. I was sad to hear that Sharme and Mariel broke up... also Carmela and Egon. :-( Tsk... it's sayang, really.. I thought the two pairs were totally bagay. Hope they're all still friends, though.

But thanks, Joey, for totally making my day! Hope to talk to you soonest! :)

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What else? OH! PBB NEWS!

JB'S REVENGE!

A huge WASHING MACHINE campaign to clean JB's image! He's been hopping from show to show to say apologize and explain why he's being a STUPID JERK inside the PBB House and tried getting the people to like him again.

Dude (dod)! PBB just made the worst move yet! They decided to let JB and Say see each other at the confession room!

But the BB Rules say that:

Pinoy Big Brother Principles

1. The lifestyle in the house is “back to basics.”
2. Housemates will have no information about or from the outside world.
3. Housemates will be cut-off completely from friends, families and loved ones.
4. Complete strangers come together to live as Housemates and to create a unique family unit.
5. The nomination process evicts people from the house.
6. Everything that happens in the house and garden is filmed. This is 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

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Confession Room

The Confession Room is the only room in the House where Housemates can communicate with Big Brother and vice versa. This is the venue where Housemates can voice out their personal feelings and observations about fellow Housemates. This is also where they can inform Big Brother of a voluntary exit, joint calls and emergencies. Big Brother can also speak to Housemates about House issues, while they are in the Confession Room.

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Leaving the House

Housemates leave the House in one of three ways:

They are nominated
They decide to quit the House of their own free will
Big Brother disqualifies them and asks them to leave

Once a Housemate leaves, there is absolutely NO returning to the House.

More of the PBB Rules < here>.
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I can't believe ABS decided to let JB in the house again!
WASN'T IT CLEAR THAT THE COUNTRY DOESN'T WANT HIM THERE?!


Toni Gonzaga had to explain to everybody that they didn't break any of the rules 'cause JB's just gonna appear to say in the confession room, they're only gonna get 100 seconds to do whatever the heck they want with each other, and Say won't be allowed to tell the other housemates what happened.

YEAH, RIGHT! What a load of bullcrap!



1. The confession room is still PART of the PBB House.
2. 1 second or a hundred won't make a difference 'cause they're still seeing each other and JB's already part of that 'OUTSIDE' world.
3. It's downright unfair for the other housemates, who didn't see any of their loved ones far longer than these two. If JB and Say will get that chance, then everybody else should have it too.
4. Won't Endemol sue ABS for breaking the darned rules?!?!?

I am SO annoyed right now!
Why make rules when you don't follow them anyway? And why for something so pointless and stupid?!

>_<'

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Wah! Say should be more careful! What ever happened to towels or blankets??


Heheh.. Tito Dougs.. what are you doing??

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