Today was Dee's debut! It went really well, I think... I mean, I did a whole lot of stuff for that event so it BETTER be perfect! Heheh.

Well, okay, things didn't run THAT smoothly... the laptop went to hibernating mode after a while and the audio wirey-things sometimes mucked up... but nothing really serious. Dian's emcees were great at improvising so it went alright in the end.

What was really cool was that mom arranged for professional hair and makeup service at home so we all looked really great at the party! I loved my faux mohawk so much that I took a gazillion pictures of it! We also had a camera crew around to tape everything and they had professional lighting... so guess who's standing around in front of the lights with her phonecam clicking away... *dumdeedum*...


Ah, heck.. I felt pretty tonight. My sister's debut had everyone wearing every shade of green... so it was really cool to look at the guests. I was in charge of the computer presentations and I was seated behind the laptop all night. Good thing Suzette (Good ol' Suzette) was there to stop me from getting really bored.

Ela and Desi were especially pretty tonight too! Ela wore a mint green knee-length dress that looked really cute on her... and Desi wore the cutest green bolero lined with sparkly sequins... and that tiny flower brooch on what she wore under was darling! Paolo insisted since Day One that he'd wear a barong... So he did! He looked mighty dashing on his outfit, and he even danced with Dian during her 18 Roses! Everybody was 'awwing'! ^____^

Anyway, we'll get our photos printed (we had someone take pics) on January 2 and we'll get the CD for our video in 5 days (they still have to edit it). I'll get some copies and scan them after I return to Cebu... then of course publish them online so the folks at the States could see!

In the meantime, here are some pics I took using my phone.
WARNING! Lots of pics of moi!

CLICK HERE

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 1:32 AM

God, I feel so darned miserable today. It's not because my throat is still ouchy... I've had lots of sore throaty goodness the whole darned year.. but it's something else...

And it's pretty interesting that of all the seasons I could have another depression relapse... it just HAD to be during the most "wonderful" time of the year. Yes, well, for the past years I've never really enjoyed Christmas anyway. I just look forward to going home and let mom spoil me--that's just about it. I know it's supposed to be about the giving/loving/sharing crap but I've done that and I still end up like this... one huge, flabby bulk of mess.

I'm secretly hoping the holidays will end soon. I can't take more of the whole business of trying to be cheerful and perky all the darned fucking time. I don't want to stay in the house because everything's either dusty, broken, or both. But I don't want to go outside either 'cause I see all the people I used to know and what's worse is knowing they don't really care shit about me. Sure, there are the occassional beso-beso's and the hugging and the "Oh, you're so pretty now!"'s... but after that, nobody really follows up on how you really are.

Okay, maybe these here statements aren't fair to my old high school classmates. They're good people and all. I don't know them then, and certainly not now. Maybe it was my fault that I established this huge wall between me and them since first year. I don't really know how to feel about it. Should I be guilty? Hmm... not really...

And the new year is fast approaching... which brought me to ask what the heck I've been doing all year. I think it wasn't a good year for me. Lots of crying alone (now with the problem of trying to be subtle 'cause I'd wake my sister up), lots of heart attacks (note: attacks on the heart area... not the medical type), lots of confusion, lots of mistakes. I've lost some people, and I saw some that just stopped trying to know me. Maybe because I'm such a difficult person to know. *shrugs* I made some friends, I lost some friends (but not because I did something wrong, btw), there are some that just gradually slipped away like my friends abroad, and most painful of all are what used to be really great relationships with friends...then destroyed by, well, trying to take it to the next level.

My God... that probably hurt me the most this year. In Joseph's case, I wasn't ready at all... and I WAS interested, but I gave him the final say. He finally decided it was just an impulse on his part and that was that. Which was fine with me... but what hurts is that we were never the same again. Plus his busy nursing schedule didn't help. Just recently he told me he likes this girl and he wants to take it slow this time (I guess he learned from his mistake with me).

He asked me if I'm mad... of course I'm not. I'm pretty happy for him and whatsername. But I just can't help but wonder if I'll be like this for guys all my life... I'll be the Trial Version. The taste test. The sample. After me they'll move on to the real thing. I'm the one they THOUGHT they loved, but then they realize they deserve better.

And Anton... well, like his blog said... I can't force him to like me (I didn't, but whatever). If I only knew he didn't actually like me, then I didn't have to look like I'm forcing him to hang out with me. He could've always said no and not see me again ever... but he still just...shows up whenever I ask him if he wanted to hang!

I'm so pathetic...I can't even make my best friends keep talking to me..

It hurts so much. :-(

For the New Year, I want to just... leave everything back. I want a new, shiny life where I won't have to be the sad loser for a change..

Or why not a new life where I can't feel anything at all?

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:27 AM

Hmm... Christmas day went by so quickly... *sighs*

but...

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

We spent Christmas eve with the Arquisolas. Lolo got a new Sony Vega flat-screen TV from his kids (every family contributed... that thing was HUGE!), someone got a new digital camera, Adrian and Kuya both got N90's. My sister gave me a cameo pendant which I ADORED completely. My mom got my a cute Juicy bag, and my tita got me a velvet jacket. Ela -finally- got her sword-shield-armor set she wanted from us (idol niya si Panday... eugh).

what else? Hmrr...

Well, here I am, a bit sick (tonsilitis from too much karaoke :P).. Met with Suzette and Wilson today. It's some sort of annual get-together 'cause Wilson's studying in Davao. While Suzette and I live in Cebu, we don't really see each other a lot 'cause of our school scheds. So... yeah... it was nice to see both of them. ^_^ We took turns talking about what happened to us all year.. but basically we focused on the love issue xD. Suzette and I both decided guys suck, and Wilson thinks we're more or less right anyway. xD Ah, well. It's great to talk about anything with everything with a guy again. Suzette is wonderful and all, but it's nice to have Wilson around to keep us from beheading every other guy we see.

Bad news:
1. our puppy got stolen
2. my lolita costume won't probably be made during my vacation. I'd have to just do measurements here and my mom will send the dress to Cebu.

Pics: (Dec 25 and 26)


Me, Wilson, and Suzette (taking advantage of the nice lighting during our photo-session and took phonepics)


Wilz and I


hay ambot


Me and Papay's Teddy


Pao+Karaoke=CUTE!


My Christmas clothes... mmmm me. (Papay asked if I wanted to look like Dracula... but okay. :P)

Bigger versions and more pictures HERE.

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:27 AM

OMG! 2 days before Christmas! I didn't even notice 'cause I was so darned busy! Wah! It's not that I'm doing work or anything concerning Dian's debut that I can't look at a calendar or anything, but I guess it's because of my allergies and the nonstop rain and the now-annoying dusty smell of my old room... ugh... everything's -attacking- me here! There are red ants that bit me almost everywhere (I've got red bumps all over, dammit!), the dust makes me sneeze and I'm finding it hard to sleep... *is going crazy*

I guess that's what happens when I'm taken out of my old routines back in Cebu...

Anyway, what's kept me sane's the emails and the text messages and even random phone calls... thanks guys! Though I know every red bump's gonna leave a scar (yeah, yeah... that's what you get for having some form of asthma of the skin, mild eczema... note: I also have the respiratory type too, mind you)--- the constant beeping on my phone made me feel all better. Mwah, mwah!

Oooh! And I asked my mom and dad to do a 'different' noche buena this year. We'd just have.. PIZZA!!! Wheee! My mom was all too happy to do my suggestion since it won't cost as much as last year's yummies, and we won't be eating much at midnight anyway... xD So.. PIZZA (stuffed crust with -the works-)!!!

(But I heard mom wants to cook pasta and pot roast too... ah, well... can't stop her xD)

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 9:10 PM

Weh..sorry for not updating... nothing much happening here, tho. There's still work and assisting my sister (more like doing -everything- major) for her debut. As usual, when everything's dumped on me like this, I get allergies and I'll be sneezing and blowing my nose around basically 24/7. It doesn't help either that my sister thinks I'm her slave and can order me around even thought I have work to do. *sighs* And my Julie's "work" isn't the most exciting thing either... I dunno... I get bored easily... and the waking-up-at-8am part is NOT FOR ME. So with my work, and my ever-demanding sister, and this darned cold... I'm slipping towards hell right now.

Only happy thing is that Paolo is around to make me smile. Or, well, I basically live, eat, breathe Paolo. xD I'm so obsessed with making him smile and laugh and kissing him. He's just told me he loves me yesterday and that felt like heaven. Imagine.. this little boy... who was denied sight but never failing to have everyone around fall in love with him.

Today was his Christmas party at BCCTC (Schoool for special children). When he entered his school, everyone inside greeted him! And he got lots of kisses from his therapist, Teacher Chat (very pretty too! Pao's popular with the ladies!). He's got three roles: lead the opening prayer, recite a poem, and play Joseph for the Nativity. He did his parts well, although he had to make sure his dad is nearby (prolly nervous with the audience). He's so cute with his Joseph costume:


(yeah, crappy picture... phone *sigh*)

More PaoPics HERE.

Watching those special kids at BCCTC was pretty heartwarming. My mom cried while watching this kid, Keith, sing and she told me that the therapists really worked hard with his speech problem. Pao's friend, San-San, gave me a hug and she's as cute as a button... and she's got Down Syndrome. There were kids in there that scream as their way of communicating, there were kids with ADHD, some had some form of autism, and you can't help but feel really great that they are in a place where they can be supported and cared for by very dedicated (not to mention VERY patient) people.

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*sighs*
Sorry guys...
More pics...

*sigh sigh*
;P

(note: watched ABS' Christmas special tonight... SAM MILBY IS SO CUUUUTE!!! Ooooooh Sam! I want him for Christmas! xD)


Rini posing at our Christmas tree


Sis and Rin


Libat in my plate at Minty Passion (it's a resto/bar thing that serves THE BEST rice and beef toppings with teriyaki sauce)


Ela trying on my Info medals


the dalmatian puppies all huddled together outside


Mommy Bo and her kiddies (she's trying to check out what I'm doing)


Bigger versions HERE.

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I finally met Uncle Ed's girl "friend"!!! Whoosies!!! *hops around* He's, like, 42 and this is his first attempt at being interested in somebody! It's sooo cute to see him dress up and asking me questions like how to address a Christmas greeting card to her and stuff. Go Uncle GO GO!!!

By the way, she's still 18! And, well, I guess my uncle's a late bloomer or whatever (and he looks like 28-ish anyway)... I don't care what other people think... basta I'm so happy for my uncle. He seems happy pud, now that he's busy about something worthwhile other than little itty bitty concerns about how his guts behave. xD

The girl is pretty... I like her. She seems shy and very mahinhin. I guess I'll be shy around someone else's family members too, especially if everyone in the family's just DYING to know who the mystery girl is! ^____^

Today's Krystel's birthday, FYI. We had dinner at their house and she invited some classmates over (also Auntie Grace invited some of her friends as well). Food was yummi, especially the lechon... I know what you're thinking... but I haven't had any since Christmas and New Year 2005!!! Or, okay, wouldn't help any on my figure... but nah.

My sister's already here in BXU! She went home with Chi last Wednesday... and I'm assigned to help her out with her debut this Dec 30 (but her bday's Jan1... all places are closed by then). I have to help with the program flow, decorate the guest book, make invitations, make a powerpoint presentation, make my speech for her, and coordinate with the emcees... WAH! All that squeezed in tmy 9-5 "job"! *sigh*

And I haven't even found an outfit for the event yet! :((

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:12 AM

Today was the Julie's Bakeshop Christmas party. My mom danced the PBB Song... I really don't know if I should laugh, cry, or whatever... but she had fun, so... xD I also did her hair (again). I think she's beginning to like her hair curled.

Hemrm! Pics!


My pretty mom


Ela and Mama dancing :P


Me and my dad


Me me me!!!! Wahahahaha!!!

---okay, nevermind. :P
Work again tomorrow.. havta wake up early! Ta!

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 12:25 AM

Another double celebration! Today is the wedding of mom and Tita Mai's friend, May-may, and it's also Ela's birthday! OOOH! And Nene's the first winner of PBB! Wah!

Okay, anyway, I took care of Mama and El's hair (Mom's the ninang and El's the flower girl). I also had to wear a dress 'cause my mom insisted I should look like a guuuurl *rolls eyes*. Weh. Ah, well. I think I looked okay anyway. People keep staring, tho... like I don't deserve to wear something I'm wearing or whatever. Bleh.



More HERE.

Wedding reception ended at around 1pm, we went home to sleep for a bit then got changed again for Ela's party at Dottie's Place. I felt better that I got to wear jeans again. xD The pool looked great and I was tempted to take a dip but I didn't bring any swimsuit (plus I wanted to spare everyone from the sight of my fat hips). The food was great... although there was a misunderstanding with the waiters and we ended up with too much food! It was so wrong that Tita had to pay extra for someone else's mistake! Blecht.

Ela is 7! Ela is 7! Doo doo doo dooooo...
*is bored*

I'm a bit dissappointed that Jayson of PBB didn't win, tho...
But Toni's first outfit on The Big Night was gothirific!!! It was a black dress with a corset top and just black lace everywhere! And I ADORE her choker! My sister actually sent me an SMS telling me to go home from Ela's birthday already so I'd see what Toni's wearing! Heheh!
By the way, sis is coming home this Wednesday. ^__^


Aaaand Pao, El, and I have a date tomorrow.. Imma take them to the mall to see Chicken Little! =^_^=

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We have a new puppy! Paolo's dalmatian, Bo, just had 5 babies, so Tita decided to give one to us! No name yet.. I wanted to call him Maxi (as in Maximo Oliveros), but my dad doesn't approve, so... xD



Ela with her puppy, Mask


Me and our new puppy! So cute! ^___^

We still can't take him away from Bo yet 'cause he still needs his mum's milk. He's still tiny and delicate... the tips of his legs and his nose are still pink and his spots aren't dark yet (kinda gray-sh like Bo was when she was a pup). Maybe after Christmas, we'll be able to take him home. :)

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Well, I had a lot of time texting people (Unlimited! Waaaah!), mostly just forwarding to everybody a lot of funnies from my phone. Most of them welcomed the flooding 'cause, well, I hardly forward people anything (unless there's a threat that a dead girl will appear in the middle of the night if I don't forward... heheh). Well, like I said, forwarded lots and got lots of replies as well! Even those that I don't normally text!

All of a sudden, this guy whose number I forgot was sitting on my phonebook forever became my textmate! Well, we were friends since high school (not the same school, tho), but we weren't really close that time. He's really funny and he was nice enough to forward me a couple of jokes as well (Trixie and Joseph do that too...thanks guys!).

Hem...
Well, I know what you guys are thinking, but nah.. not interested. Heheh. I remember he's pretty cute, tho, and I had a huge crush on him a few years back.. but crush lang. I never really got to a point where I want to be in a relationship with any of my crushes. xD The guy started sounding like he's going THAT WAY, but I don't really want to entertain things like that right now. He specifically said he might wanna try courting (wah! imagine that!)... it's flattering... tempting as well... but it's too fast. Plus long-distance thingies rarely work. And I'm tired of gushing over the sweet things guys do/say/whatever... I don't want to feel like a giddy schoolgirl again (or at least, not this time). I'm just too exhausted in dealing with the opposite sex and sometimes all they do (bad AND good) just falls into my roll-eye/raise-brow category. I don't trust them.

*sighs*

Thank God for work!

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 9:13 PM

Well, again, work... Nothing much happened, 'cept I love my long-sleeved gray&black-striped top... xD

Hmm... it was boring after that so I took a LOT of pics using my phone.

>> Mom got me this black lace-trimmed blazer with a fluffy shirt inside - LINK
>> She also got me this lavender Victorian-inspired top - LINK
>> What I'll wear for someone's wedding on Saturday - LINK
>> Mom also bought these cute slip-ons that her friend bought from Japan! And the soles are really wooden xD - LINK


If you're bored and wanna see more random piccies for the day, click HERE. (Sorry guys... no big images for now... the computer at our house just can't take it!)

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Hmm... nothing much happened today... just the random loveys from Popo and typing bread types, kilos, prices, and other grown-uppish stuff at "work". Hemyeah... I still can't believe I've been waking up at 8am!!!

Sat's Ela's birthday, but it's also a double party for me since I will attend a wedding as well... eheh. Nice excuse to get all glammed up, tho... wheeeee...

Me's also the go-to girl on stuff like composing grade school Christmas party welcome addresses (Ela) and official memorization coach for Po's poem recitation (also for Xmas party). Weh... ;)

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 9:32 PM

OK... you guys might've observed the new Google stuff that's popped out here... Well, my blog is now a source of, well, revenue for yours truly since I've signed on to Google AdSense. Our guest speaker during our graduation gave us a few helpful advices on where to get some cash on the net and he said placing ads in your site is a great example. So I decided I should try it out. So guys, please help me out by using the Google Search bar through my blog or by clicking on any of the links advertised by Google below (after my "buttons" and on the very bottom of the page). Click as much as you can, as often as you can (you don't have to be interested about what the link is about! Just click!). If you ever decided to do Adsense as well, please alert me so I'd check out your ads too! Tabang-tabang lang ba!

Thankies! :)

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Oh....

And a few pics to share:


Pao and I during "work"


Libat and Kulot, my new phone and wallet mascots


me and mom during car ride to CDO


Me and sis being silly at the SM dept store (before I left for bXu)


El and I

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Grad pics HERE. (I will add more pics soonest when I get copies from Diana's cam and the school's photographer)

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Gotta go! Work at 9!

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 8:26 PM

Wah! I'm here in Butuan, and i'm actually working right now! Or, well, I call it work anyway! I'm currently using my uncle's spiffy laptop and I'm assigned to do every stuff that involves computers such as teaching the staff new programs, installing, encoding, burning, etc... it's hard, but someone's gotta do it, right? *wink, wink* wahahahaha...

I've been to Cagayan De Oro for two days to attend my uncle's opening of yet another Julie's branch somewhere in Opol (don't ask where that is!). I haven't been to CDO for two years and man, it really has changed! The Lim Kit Kai mall looks AWESOME! Ayala Center Cebu has nothing on LKK! There are gazookles of shops in there, loads of space to roam about, and the bargains are to die for! I got a cute black velvet jacket for a great price! Wah! My only problem about the place is that I hate travelling on the road 'cause I have motion sickness and I just can't bear driving for four hours!!!

What else? Hmmm... nothing much, just here at Paolo's house and doing my "job"... AC'ed, I can surf and blog all I want with broadband internet (yes, baby!), free snacks and lunch! WAH! And I get paid! So I'll have money to pay for my Loli outfit! Ahahaha!

Anyway, guys, just writing for update's sake...
I miss y'all! Can't chat at home 'cause my own computer's a dinosaur and it can't stay online for 15 minutes to save my life!

Link me! posted by the saucy wench @ 11:50 AM